we are not through yet...
& we meet him...
...after he stood there for what it felt like hours...he slowly made his way back to his apartment...he took no notice that he was sobbing wet...he was standing inside his apartment trying to grasp what happened...how just in one moment where he thought things were turning around & then how quickly it all disappeared...he wasn't sure what to do next...he picked up his phone...& dialed...
...just a few blocks over audrey had made her way back to her apartment...she was beating herself up & in the in between times she was balling her eyes out...how could she have been so stupid as to think that the night before meant anything...& to top if all off she is not even sure all the events that occurred the night before; which made it even worse...she sat on her couch...and her heart started to hurt...a small twinge of pain at first & escalating into where it felt like it might stop in order for the pain to cease...she leaned over on the pillow & started to cry...all that kept running through her head was, i should have walked away at every moment...i should have never let him get the best of me...as she dozed off, her phone buzzed...
...the phone rang three times, & then a voice..."hello..." "hi" he was very short...his heart no matter how he protected it kept getting hurt, so now he was really done being ok with it...."i'm so glad you called..." "why do you seem to keep ruining my life, no matter if it is here or even back home, you have to stop..." "i know its not fair but i need to talk to you, i need to figure things out...ever since we ended life isn't making sense anymore..." he could feel his edge softening, and he was trying to tell himself stay strong..."so what you want me back, it doesn't work that way, sam, i'm sorry, you hurt me..." he could hear her starting to cry, dammit..."don't cry, please don't..." "i know this is all my fault, but please hear me out..." & there he was listening to her apologize, and say she was wrong & at the end of the conversation, saying those words, "i want you back, i need you back...my heart still loves you" & those words that his heart longed to hear were only met with audrey's face of pain & hurt..."you still there?" he managed to jump back in the conversation..."i'm here, i hear you...i don't know, sam...i need to think about it, i need time...& you owe that to me...so let me have it & when i am ready i will contact you..." this response was met with dead air, & then "ok" he knew he was hurting her & that she probably expected him to just fall back into them, & if you would have asked him 1 month ago or even 2 nights ago he probably would have fallen so hard again...but his life was different now...& he had to sort this out with audrey first, he knew he owed her that...
...audrey looked to see who it was, & a sense of hope overcame her only to be met with an 800#, she clicked ignore, & pulled the cover over her head...& the same pain set in, where she knew that whatever it was the night before meant nothing...her heart could bare no more...it just hurt & she thought, how could this pain be so intense after one night...her phone vibrated again, the hope returned & was dashed at the same time when she realized it was just an email...she decided, i have to rise above it, i am not going to be a stupid 'hung up on a guy' kind of girl...her phone started to go off, it was ben, she pushed ignore she wasn't ready...moments later the phone rang again, ben...she pushed ignore...several more times, then a text, you are going to have to talk to me some time, so why not answer now...the phone rang, "hello..."
...& the conversation went a little something like this...wait & you will find out...
<3 FDR
& we meet him...
...after he stood there for what it felt like hours...he slowly made his way back to his apartment...he took no notice that he was sobbing wet...he was standing inside his apartment trying to grasp what happened...how just in one moment where he thought things were turning around & then how quickly it all disappeared...he wasn't sure what to do next...he picked up his phone...& dialed...
...just a few blocks over audrey had made her way back to her apartment...she was beating herself up & in the in between times she was balling her eyes out...how could she have been so stupid as to think that the night before meant anything...& to top if all off she is not even sure all the events that occurred the night before; which made it even worse...she sat on her couch...and her heart started to hurt...a small twinge of pain at first & escalating into where it felt like it might stop in order for the pain to cease...she leaned over on the pillow & started to cry...all that kept running through her head was, i should have walked away at every moment...i should have never let him get the best of me...as she dozed off, her phone buzzed...
...the phone rang three times, & then a voice..."hello..." "hi" he was very short...his heart no matter how he protected it kept getting hurt, so now he was really done being ok with it...."i'm so glad you called..." "why do you seem to keep ruining my life, no matter if it is here or even back home, you have to stop..." "i know its not fair but i need to talk to you, i need to figure things out...ever since we ended life isn't making sense anymore..." he could feel his edge softening, and he was trying to tell himself stay strong..."so what you want me back, it doesn't work that way, sam, i'm sorry, you hurt me..." he could hear her starting to cry, dammit..."don't cry, please don't..." "i know this is all my fault, but please hear me out..." & there he was listening to her apologize, and say she was wrong & at the end of the conversation, saying those words, "i want you back, i need you back...my heart still loves you" & those words that his heart longed to hear were only met with audrey's face of pain & hurt..."you still there?" he managed to jump back in the conversation..."i'm here, i hear you...i don't know, sam...i need to think about it, i need time...& you owe that to me...so let me have it & when i am ready i will contact you..." this response was met with dead air, & then "ok" he knew he was hurting her & that she probably expected him to just fall back into them, & if you would have asked him 1 month ago or even 2 nights ago he probably would have fallen so hard again...but his life was different now...& he had to sort this out with audrey first, he knew he owed her that...
...audrey looked to see who it was, & a sense of hope overcame her only to be met with an 800#, she clicked ignore, & pulled the cover over her head...& the same pain set in, where she knew that whatever it was the night before meant nothing...her heart could bare no more...it just hurt & she thought, how could this pain be so intense after one night...her phone vibrated again, the hope returned & was dashed at the same time when she realized it was just an email...she decided, i have to rise above it, i am not going to be a stupid 'hung up on a guy' kind of girl...her phone started to go off, it was ben, she pushed ignore she wasn't ready...moments later the phone rang again, ben...she pushed ignore...several more times, then a text, you are going to have to talk to me some time, so why not answer now...the phone rang, "hello..."
...& the conversation went a little something like this...wait & you will find out...
<3 FDR
Damn you cliff hanger!!!
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