day 60
as a former member of the restaurant world (& would love to return to & do again)...i would like to take a moment & give a few helpful hint to those that frequent restaurants...now i know what you are thinking...i know how to act when i go in to a restaurant & besides if there is a f* up it is totally their fault (& i am not saying it isn't, there are many who suck at serving & many who mess up)...but please read on & just humor me...then when you finish, you can say damn i guess i never thought of it & THEN the next time you enter an establishment where you will be sitting, ordering food, think before you act...b/c would you want some crazy girl writing a blog about you & your asinine behavior in a restaurant...just sayin'
a blog on HOW NOT TO PISS YOUR SERVER OFF or rather HOW TO ACT appropriately in a restaurant...(& again these are inspired by true stories, no names will be given, but check yourself)
...we all put pants on one leg at a time, i don't even care if you have 'DR' before your name, or you are the next Lebron James...last time i checked we are all human & just because i am serving you, doesn't mean you are better than me...
...your server is a person...when talking/ordering LOOK at them (i think our mothers taught us that one)
...technology is great but unless you are texting your server your order put your phone the f* down & don't even try to order when you are having a conversation with someone else...obvi the food is not that important & it can wait to be ordered until you are finished...
(...& side note...attention children, if you are going out to a restaurant, why go in a big group if you are all going to have your eyes glued to a phone & not each others company...just sayin, eat alone & then text away except when your server is not there...)
...when asking a question, please reply & think before doing...so if i ask what kind of toast you want, don't say toast...or what kind of eggs you want, don't say eggs, or if i ask you what kind of juice you want, don't say juice, or if i ask you what kind of meat, don't say meat...those questions require an answer a little more than repetition...
...i can't read your mind, so if you want something you are going to have tell me...use your words!
...if you wouldn't mind (i know FB is really important especially when your server is taking your order) but please pay attention...so then the server doesn't have to repeat herself 9 times the same choices, time saver for all...order goes in quicker & food comes out quicker...really we are benefiting you!
...you think if you order it, you might be able to remember it...so when i come to your table (yes i know its my job, but if everyone gets the same thing except for the difference in meat, that is like trying to tell twins apart) & announce your meal, A) do not continue to talk, do you not see the plates in my hand, B) don't stare at me like you have never heard of the food coming out of my mouth...
...be courteous of others, if everyone has not gotten their food, why the hell are you askin' for something...wait your turn (i think that lesson was in kindergarten)
...please & thank you (maybe watch sesame street or mr. rogers)
...ladies, women, girls -- we are the worst offenders, stop being a PAIN in the ASS when dining out...
...don't summon your waitress, like a servant, again use your words...& for sure don't slam an empty cup on the table (if they are ignoring you, maybe) but if they are busy & you know you just downed a mountain dew in 2 seconds, give them a minute...
...if you are going to b&^$ about pricing, just go to the grocery store & make it yourself (those that own restaurants (& i know not all) but are trying to survive too)...you are going out to eat...& don't take it out on your server...they don't make the pricing...
...TIP --- if you don't like it move to europe....
....if you know (& you do know who YOU are) that you should not interact in a public place don't even try it...especially in a restaurant...so if you are a pain in the a@*, then at stay home...
...patience is a virtue (there is a lot of truth behind that saying & i am not saying wait forever) but relax...you want fast food, i am sure there is a McDonalds around the corner...
...don't write a food review if you know nothing about food or if you think you do however you just reviewed a taco bell, really a taco bell! (yelp not a great source, try it for yourself unless a major, major bad review; every place deserves a go once if not twice)...
...be respectful of the restaurant and their policies...so if they say no dogs (besides being health code), then no matter the size (unless a service dog) don't try to sneak them in to the restaurant & get mad when the manager tells you, they cannot be in there...or if for certain saturdays during a certain season, they ask you not to move tables, don't do it...you wouldn't want someone to come in your house & move stuff, just sayin'
...after you are done eating...the bill is paid, & you clearly see people are waiting, don't sit, get the hell up...restaurants are not coffee shops...& most of them, if not all need for you to move especially when they are busy...so be courteous get up!
...don't ask to sit at a 4-top when there is 2 let alone 1 of you (& there are other tables available), when that is the only 4-top left...
...remember karma, so if you treat people (not just servers) like SH*#, then guess what one day watch out; besides life is way to short to be that mean!
i literally could go on but that is enough...& remember most servers, yes many do it as a part time job but their are others that love doing it (i miss it, i love the people, i love the stories, clearly, especially the reaction from others when they say OMG, i can't believe that happened) and will keep doing it (no, not just for the tips) but b/c they enjoy it...(& i know that there are those that are in the industry who are not right or even nice about it and for sure should get the hell out); HOWEVER, i am only askin' one thing, use your damn brain before dining...& think to yourself, would you want someone doing that to you...just sayin'
Happy Dining!
<3 JB
2.29.2012
2.28.2012
don't worry the fat kid...
...well, she is still fat (hello, work in progress)
day 59...
...so for themillions eleven that read yesterday (including my mother, thank you mom!), i have one more to add to the bucket list -- run a WHOLE mile, yes 1 whole mile :) without stopping to walk (a fat kid has dreams other than what they will eat!)...
ok so for today's topic, let us discuss one fat a@*, that would be mine...i have neglected the whole 30 to 30 long enough, probably b/c the skinny train left & i barely got to the station let alone ran after the damn thing...however i digress, it is still on my mind (PS, side note...yes, as you guess i am over the whole love topics for the month of february, i am sorry it was leap year, i have nothing else to say about love)...
i have not given up on this old body of mine (29 1/2 years young), in fact i have actually exercised (typing that is like typing a bad word) the past two days...& i got to tell you there are parts of my body that forgot that they could hurt (mainly bc they have not been used in the last 3 years, please pick your chin up from floor)...so far so good, & maybe i can still do it, i have a little less than 6 months, so all hope is not lost!
now don't go buying all new size 0 clothes for me (which btw, even if my a*# shrunk it would never be a 0, hello arab hips)...b/c as you know, it is only tuesday & yes you guessed it, it is me! but truth be told i am enjoying it & was actually excited to get back out there today (yes, again, it is only tuesday, so i am holding on to this feeling as long as i can)...
...so just as you are about to give up on this blog, & remove it from your bookmarks (come on i know it was there), be patient we are just getting started (again!)...& do not give up on my ARSS either, & just b/c i don't talk about it for awhile does not mean i am not thinking about it (i think we refer to that as avoiding the problem, right kate?)...
cheers to me, i am back on the wagon!
(another side note, & yes i posted on FB b/c it was very FB worthy, but this kind of proves the whole fat kid theory...if/when i have a kid, the said kid's name will be Labne, just sayin'!)
DZ <3
day 59...
...so for the
ok so for today's topic, let us discuss one fat a@*, that would be mine...i have neglected the whole 30 to 30 long enough, probably b/c the skinny train left & i barely got to the station let alone ran after the damn thing...however i digress, it is still on my mind (PS, side note...yes, as you guess i am over the whole love topics for the month of february, i am sorry it was leap year, i have nothing else to say about love)...
i have not given up on this old body of mine (29 1/2 years young), in fact i have actually exercised (typing that is like typing a bad word) the past two days...& i got to tell you there are parts of my body that forgot that they could hurt (mainly bc they have not been used in the last 3 years, please pick your chin up from floor)...so far so good, & maybe i can still do it, i have a little less than 6 months, so all hope is not lost!
now don't go buying all new size 0 clothes for me (which btw, even if my a*# shrunk it would never be a 0, hello arab hips)...b/c as you know, it is only tuesday & yes you guessed it, it is me! but truth be told i am enjoying it & was actually excited to get back out there today (yes, again, it is only tuesday, so i am holding on to this feeling as long as i can)...
...so just as you are about to give up on this blog, & remove it from your bookmarks (come on i know it was there), be patient we are just getting started (again!)...& do not give up on my ARSS either, & just b/c i don't talk about it for awhile does not mean i am not thinking about it (i think we refer to that as avoiding the problem, right kate?)...
cheers to me, i am back on the wagon!
(another side note, & yes i posted on FB b/c it was very FB worthy, but this kind of proves the whole fat kid theory...if/when i have a kid, the said kid's name will be Labne, just sayin'!)
DZ <3
2.27.2012
& there she be a...bucket list...
day 58...
does everyone have a bucket list? are you supposed to let others know what is on yours?
...not too sure but since i am at the age i am, pushing 30 & all...i figure i best be working to finish my bucket list (or at least so i can then do another one or add more, you can have more than one right?)...so here it is...danielle's bucket o' fun...
...some are given, some are short term & simple, while others are out there, may not be the easiest but i am going to try my hardest to do, scouts honor...isn't that what a bucket list is for...
...visit the following --> (international) Lebanon, Ireland, Italy, France, Greece, England... (domestic) Hawaii, Vancouver, Seattle, Portland, Austin, Miami, San Francisco, Napa Valley
...sky dive...
...buy a race horse & have him run for the triple crown (with, of course Nick)
...own a store (wine, flower, stationary)
...be an extra in TV Show/Movie
...learn how to surf
...finish my interpreting degree
...write a story for each of my nieces & nephews
...meet Marlee Matlin
...join a sand volleyball league & play
...have coffee with a friend (regularly)
...try out (be) in a play
...knit something circular
...learn how to play the violin (or finish learning the piano)
...write 365 cards
...everyday say to those that i love, "I LOVE YOU!"
...make a whole outfit with my two hands
...fall in love & have a family (maybe a given to some but it goes on the list)
...zip line
...live in The City
...write a book(s)
...adopt a Deaf kid
...work with inner city kids, or a poor village (not sure yet but do something)
...leave a mark, that says "I Was Here!"
...that's it...some are simple, others who knows...but how can you achieve your dreams or finish the list if you never right them down...
<3 AP
does everyone have a bucket list? are you supposed to let others know what is on yours?
...not too sure but since i am at the age i am, pushing 30 & all...i figure i best be working to finish my bucket list (or at least so i can then do another one or add more, you can have more than one right?)...so here it is...danielle's bucket o' fun...
...some are given, some are short term & simple, while others are out there, may not be the easiest but i am going to try my hardest to do, scouts honor...isn't that what a bucket list is for...
...visit the following --> (international) Lebanon, Ireland, Italy, France, Greece, England... (domestic) Hawaii, Vancouver, Seattle, Portland, Austin, Miami, San Francisco, Napa Valley
...sky dive...
...buy a race horse & have him run for the triple crown (with, of course Nick)
...own a store (wine, flower, stationary)
...be an extra in TV Show/Movie
...learn how to surf
...finish my interpreting degree
...write a story for each of my nieces & nephews
...meet Marlee Matlin
...join a sand volleyball league & play
...have coffee with a friend (regularly)
...try out (be) in a play
...knit something circular
...learn how to play the violin (or finish learning the piano)
...write 365 cards
...everyday say to those that i love, "I LOVE YOU!"
...make a whole outfit with my two hands
...fall in love & have a family (maybe a given to some but it goes on the list)
...zip line
...live in The City
...write a book(s)
...adopt a Deaf kid
...work with inner city kids, or a poor village (not sure yet but do something)
...leave a mark, that says "I Was Here!"
...that's it...some are simple, others who knows...but how can you achieve your dreams or finish the list if you never right them down...
<3 AP
2.26.2012
now i remember what happened...
(**this is just a story!)
day 57...
& the story continues...
here are the first three parts, just in cases...
where we began
then there was some more
that could be the end, but there was more...
"...the memory of the night came back to her as if she was back in the moment where her dream was becoming a reality...
...she got out of the shower, &; grabbed a t-shirt and pants...and walked out to the living room & saw him sleeping...at first she freaked out, she wanted to jump up and down like a school girl...but instead she grabbed a blanket and pulled it over him...as she walked started to walk away she felt a tug on her pajama pant..."where are you going?" he looked up at her...she paused she didn't know what to say...(be mature, be bold, be sexy)..."well, i figured since i did puke on your shoes, i could at least let you sleep on my couch," she smirked as she walk towards her bedroom...
...she could feel him stand up behind her, and reach for her, as she moved..."no i meant, i want to finish what we started, since you do have feelings for me..." before she could negate her obvious big mouth comment about how much she liked him, his lips met hers & she was now melting into his arms...& she wanted to stop & ask him a zillion questions, but partly due to her intoxication along with her desire to be with him, she let him have her...
...she sat down on her bed, she was breathing heavy, what did she do?...how could she, she doesn't operate like that, EVER, the room started to spin...then she started to take deep, DEEP breaths...what if he thinks, i am that kind of girl, what if he thinks that it was a random hook up...at that moment she was thankful if for nothing else that nothing decided to resurface that she had just ate...her breathing had slowed down, she was starting to think more rational, all i have to do is remember the rest & then set him straight, feelings or not...
she walked over to her closet, and saw his watch laying on her desk...her mind flashed back to that night, well i suppose we kept moving from room to room...or he just decided to leave everything behind, just in case she didn't remember, she thought, either really thoughtful, or incredibly weird...
...as she stood there letting him kiss her and allowing his hands to navigate her body, they manage to walk & kiss into her bedroom...he sat on her bed, there he was her dream guy, her crush, & all she had to do was let go and just be with him...he pulled her close to him, she pulled back...he could sense her reluctancy, he looked up at her, "what is wrong?" she stammered, "i just don't usually do this, i am not a drinker, for sure not a puker & omg, so far from a one night stander, i think that it would be..." she couldn't say it, she wanted him, and the fact that he was there, wanting, she stopped herself, wait a minute...he could see that her mood was changing...
..."what?" he asked innocently...she was now standing away from him..."why are you here, do you think that you will get a*# from me because perhaps you think i am way too drunk to care & you know i freakin' like you..." his mouth dropped open..."umm, umm." "you totes did, you a*$hole. just like every other guy, i so thought you," he cut her off, "wait a f-- minute, i am not the one who announced in the cab that if i come back to your place, i could have you any place in your apartment..." her mouth hung open, and she felt like she might want to throw up all over again & on him... "however," as he noticed her starting to look more and more green, "i don't think that about you, i know you were speaking from a shall i say an adult beverage induced state...i watch you in the office, i see how you carry yourself...i know you don't take shit...truth?" he looked up at her, a different look than what she had ever seen, she shook her head, she had now calmed herself down...where she was at least sitting next to him..."i was hoping that maybe i would get to know you a little better, don't be a girl & take that the wrong way," "ugh," he laughed, "know i want to know you outside a work, this, tonight just happened a little differently than i planned & so now here we are..."
...she didn't know what to say, was he for real...a part of her was 'screamin' are you f-- kiddin' me, here is this hot specimen, and you are having a gut check, like really come on' & the other was like 'tread lightly'...she sat there..."well, i'm hungry, do you like cereal?" "what, really...you are not kicking me out?" "not yet, i figure we could have a little more of a chat before i toss you, & what better way to chat it up than with cereal..." she smiled..."frosted mini wheats or golden grahams?" he sat there for a minute, she was waiting for him to say, hey i got to go...then he looked at her, stood up..."i guess golden grahams will have to do, i prefer life the next time we do this...
her breathing completely turned to regularity...ok she didn't do anything...then a thought dawned on her, 'no pants,' & 'the best i ever had'...what if she was remembering what she wanted & leaving her disgrace out of it...what if he saw, remembered it differently...what if she didn't remember what she thought didn't happen...she tried to go back to the night more memories, nothing...well if it was any kind of good why couldn't she remember...she looked over to at the clock, 'ohh no, 5:15,' how did that happen...her phone went off..."see you in 15, still comin' right?" she thought for a moment, if i can't remember the rest how am i supposed to talk to him as if i do...but then it occurred to her, maybe that was it, she could play it off to however he recalled the events of last night & go from there...she would let him lead the conversation..."why of course :)" she replied...she could do this, be bold, be sexy, act like you know...
she grabbed her bag shoved his goodies in it, grabbed her keys, phone & jacket & headed out...here goes nothing...as she turned the key to lock the door & she pushed on the door, a thought slammed into her head...they were here, the kissing started here, she was up against the door, when they first started making out...so much passion, there was no flippin way it ended with cereal, another make out session & cuddling...mother f--, passion, her remembering him wanting her as much as she wanted him...right there it started, she knew it, he was not going to have the same memories...
...stomach churning as she walked down the street...she rounded the corner, GG's was now in sight...she wondered if she beat him, she looked at her phone, nope she was late, typical for her, & she knows he is never late...& there he was as she opened the door, sitting, waiting...she stopped & almost turned around...but something compelled her to go in, to move towards him...as she approached the table, he looked up and their eyes met, he had a smile on his face which instantly made her smile...he gently moved in for a hug & kiss, she allowed herself that moment, & then as his lips softly pressed against hers...she knew...the story wasn't over...
...to be continued...
day 57...
& the story continues...
here are the first three parts, just in cases...
where we began
then there was some more
that could be the end, but there was more...
"...the memory of the night came back to her as if she was back in the moment where her dream was becoming a reality...
...she got out of the shower, &; grabbed a t-shirt and pants...and walked out to the living room & saw him sleeping...at first she freaked out, she wanted to jump up and down like a school girl...but instead she grabbed a blanket and pulled it over him...as she walked started to walk away she felt a tug on her pajama pant..."where are you going?" he looked up at her...she paused she didn't know what to say...(be mature, be bold, be sexy)..."well, i figured since i did puke on your shoes, i could at least let you sleep on my couch," she smirked as she walk towards her bedroom...
...she could feel him stand up behind her, and reach for her, as she moved..."no i meant, i want to finish what we started, since you do have feelings for me..." before she could negate her obvious big mouth comment about how much she liked him, his lips met hers & she was now melting into his arms...& she wanted to stop & ask him a zillion questions, but partly due to her intoxication along with her desire to be with him, she let him have her...
...she sat down on her bed, she was breathing heavy, what did she do?...how could she, she doesn't operate like that, EVER, the room started to spin...then she started to take deep, DEEP breaths...what if he thinks, i am that kind of girl, what if he thinks that it was a random hook up...at that moment she was thankful if for nothing else that nothing decided to resurface that she had just ate...her breathing had slowed down, she was starting to think more rational, all i have to do is remember the rest & then set him straight, feelings or not...
she walked over to her closet, and saw his watch laying on her desk...her mind flashed back to that night, well i suppose we kept moving from room to room...or he just decided to leave everything behind, just in case she didn't remember, she thought, either really thoughtful, or incredibly weird...
...as she stood there letting him kiss her and allowing his hands to navigate her body, they manage to walk & kiss into her bedroom...he sat on her bed, there he was her dream guy, her crush, & all she had to do was let go and just be with him...he pulled her close to him, she pulled back...he could sense her reluctancy, he looked up at her, "what is wrong?" she stammered, "i just don't usually do this, i am not a drinker, for sure not a puker & omg, so far from a one night stander, i think that it would be..." she couldn't say it, she wanted him, and the fact that he was there, wanting, she stopped herself, wait a minute...he could see that her mood was changing...
..."what?" he asked innocently...she was now standing away from him..."why are you here, do you think that you will get a*# from me because perhaps you think i am way too drunk to care & you know i freakin' like you..." his mouth dropped open..."umm, umm." "you totes did, you a*$hole. just like every other guy, i so thought you," he cut her off, "wait a f-- minute, i am not the one who announced in the cab that if i come back to your place, i could have you any place in your apartment..." her mouth hung open, and she felt like she might want to throw up all over again & on him... "however," as he noticed her starting to look more and more green, "i don't think that about you, i know you were speaking from a shall i say an adult beverage induced state...i watch you in the office, i see how you carry yourself...i know you don't take shit...truth?" he looked up at her, a different look than what she had ever seen, she shook her head, she had now calmed herself down...where she was at least sitting next to him..."i was hoping that maybe i would get to know you a little better, don't be a girl & take that the wrong way," "ugh," he laughed, "know i want to know you outside a work, this, tonight just happened a little differently than i planned & so now here we are..."
...she didn't know what to say, was he for real...a part of her was 'screamin' are you f-- kiddin' me, here is this hot specimen, and you are having a gut check, like really come on' & the other was like 'tread lightly'...she sat there..."well, i'm hungry, do you like cereal?" "what, really...you are not kicking me out?" "not yet, i figure we could have a little more of a chat before i toss you, & what better way to chat it up than with cereal..." she smiled..."frosted mini wheats or golden grahams?" he sat there for a minute, she was waiting for him to say, hey i got to go...then he looked at her, stood up..."i guess golden grahams will have to do, i prefer life the next time we do this...
her breathing completely turned to regularity...ok she didn't do anything...then a thought dawned on her, 'no pants,' & 'the best i ever had'...what if she was remembering what she wanted & leaving her disgrace out of it...what if he saw, remembered it differently...what if she didn't remember what she thought didn't happen...she tried to go back to the night more memories, nothing...well if it was any kind of good why couldn't she remember...she looked over to at the clock, 'ohh no, 5:15,' how did that happen...her phone went off..."see you in 15, still comin' right?" she thought for a moment, if i can't remember the rest how am i supposed to talk to him as if i do...but then it occurred to her, maybe that was it, she could play it off to however he recalled the events of last night & go from there...she would let him lead the conversation..."why of course :)" she replied...she could do this, be bold, be sexy, act like you know...
she grabbed her bag shoved his goodies in it, grabbed her keys, phone & jacket & headed out...here goes nothing...as she turned the key to lock the door & she pushed on the door, a thought slammed into her head...they were here, the kissing started here, she was up against the door, when they first started making out...so much passion, there was no flippin way it ended with cereal, another make out session & cuddling...mother f--, passion, her remembering him wanting her as much as she wanted him...right there it started, she knew it, he was not going to have the same memories...
...stomach churning as she walked down the street...she rounded the corner, GG's was now in sight...she wondered if she beat him, she looked at her phone, nope she was late, typical for her, & she knows he is never late...& there he was as she opened the door, sitting, waiting...she stopped & almost turned around...but something compelled her to go in, to move towards him...as she approached the table, he looked up and their eyes met, he had a smile on his face which instantly made her smile...he gently moved in for a hug & kiss, she allowed herself that moment, & then as his lips softly pressed against hers...she knew...the story wasn't over...
...to be continued...
2.25.2012
i VOW...
day 56....
...what a great day...i should probably mention my 8 year old niece spent the night at my house, so instant smile right there as i wake up to her face :)...then i started the day off with a rousing day at the BMV (yes get excited, or maybe not)...that was just the beginning...then we made our way to Jersey Boys (& if you have not seen it and it is near you, go see it NOW!)...then we ate at a Leb. (Lebanese) restaurant, which was yummy, snaps for the Grapeleaf Express in toledo...then we left & went to Target (love), then we went to a coffee shop (& we all know how i feel about coffee shops) to listen to some jams...then we rounded out the evening with a movie..."The Vow"
...hell yes i am going to talk about this movie...i LOVED it...if you get a chance to check it out, please do, it was raw, emotional, & just awesome...being that it was inspired by true events, gives us (all, male or female) hope that we could find that person who vows to be there through it all & even loves us enough to walk away...
(SHALL I SAY SPOILER ALERT!)
...the point after channing tatum has tried several times for rachel mcadams to remember the love they have & he is at her sister's wedding...& he says, "how do you walk away from a girl who you love." & he lets her go b/c he knows he needs to do that for her, for her to rediscover who she is...
...later when she shows up to ask if he knew about her dad cheating on her mother...& is that why she separated herself from her family...he looks at her straight in the face & says yes...she asks why he never told her, & he replies by saying i wanted you to remember how much you loved me but not in that way...& after she says she can't imagine not being with her family at this moment in her life, he tells her to go...again even though his heart is being ripped apart again & she is right there in front of him & he wants her to stay, yet he lets her go...
...after several months...she runs into him & after everything he takes her back...he was willing to let go & wait (which is probably one of the hardest things to do), and then he takes her back, not with any anger or regret but a smiling heart...
...kind of fitting; i had posted many blog entries about all these topics, only to end my week with going to a movie where each one of them gets touched upon...knowing when it is time to hold on & fight for her/him, fight for an us... but at that very exact moment knowing you have to & when to let go, even when to let go would mean you are destroying yourself, but at the same time saving the other person (truly a selfless act)...holding on to hope, and waiting for something that might never happen, but knowing if that person happens to show back up you are willing to risk it all again for quite possibly one of the best experiences in your life...
should you go see it, i think YES, should we believe in it, well (as my mother would say) it was inspired by true events, so MAYBE!
<3 CS
...what a great day...i should probably mention my 8 year old niece spent the night at my house, so instant smile right there as i wake up to her face :)...then i started the day off with a rousing day at the BMV (yes get excited, or maybe not)...that was just the beginning...then we made our way to Jersey Boys (& if you have not seen it and it is near you, go see it NOW!)...then we ate at a Leb. (Lebanese) restaurant, which was yummy, snaps for the Grapeleaf Express in toledo...then we left & went to Target (love), then we went to a coffee shop (& we all know how i feel about coffee shops) to listen to some jams...then we rounded out the evening with a movie..."The Vow"
...hell yes i am going to talk about this movie...i LOVED it...if you get a chance to check it out, please do, it was raw, emotional, & just awesome...being that it was inspired by true events, gives us (all, male or female) hope that we could find that person who vows to be there through it all & even loves us enough to walk away...
(SHALL I SAY SPOILER ALERT!)
...the point after channing tatum has tried several times for rachel mcadams to remember the love they have & he is at her sister's wedding...& he says, "how do you walk away from a girl who you love." & he lets her go b/c he knows he needs to do that for her, for her to rediscover who she is...
...later when she shows up to ask if he knew about her dad cheating on her mother...& is that why she separated herself from her family...he looks at her straight in the face & says yes...she asks why he never told her, & he replies by saying i wanted you to remember how much you loved me but not in that way...& after she says she can't imagine not being with her family at this moment in her life, he tells her to go...again even though his heart is being ripped apart again & she is right there in front of him & he wants her to stay, yet he lets her go...
...after several months...she runs into him & after everything he takes her back...he was willing to let go & wait (which is probably one of the hardest things to do), and then he takes her back, not with any anger or regret but a smiling heart...
...kind of fitting; i had posted many blog entries about all these topics, only to end my week with going to a movie where each one of them gets touched upon...knowing when it is time to hold on & fight for her/him, fight for an us... but at that very exact moment knowing you have to & when to let go, even when to let go would mean you are destroying yourself, but at the same time saving the other person (truly a selfless act)...holding on to hope, and waiting for something that might never happen, but knowing if that person happens to show back up you are willing to risk it all again for quite possibly one of the best experiences in your life...
should you go see it, i think YES, should we believe in it, well (as my mother would say) it was inspired by true events, so MAYBE!
<3 CS
2.24.2012
ohh friends, i love thee...
day 55...
i do not care what anyone says, friends has to be one of thee best shows ever...and the more i re-watch episodes, the more they make me laugh...at this very moment (probably why i cannot even produce a sentence or type a word, or that i am getting distracted every 5 minutes) i am watching the episode where phoebe finds out that chandler & monica are dating, while ross is trying to get ugly naked guy's apartment...
friends, dealt with all issues, ross & rachel falling in & out of love with each other, probably some of my favorite episodes, joey becoming famous or not famous & his ohh so famous line, "how you doin'?"...monica & chandler falling in love & getting married, rachel starting the show as server only to evolve in to a top fashion buyer...the girls losing their apartment to the guys b/c rachel thought chandler was a "transponsder"...ross dating several people outside of rachel & all of them failing because rachel was his real lobster...& phoebe & all her quirknyness, like her teaching rachel how to run, her wanting to change her name after she got married to mike, & her alter ego, regina phalange (which, as you know, is my alter ego)...
we fell in love when they fell in love, we laughed when they laughed, we enjoyed them for 10 seasons, and i cannot thank nick at nite enough for showing reruns...
so here is to some of my favorite friends moments...
friends, i miss you,
ENJOY, cause there is a lot...& i literally could keep going...(ps i got out of control)...
She's his lobster!
Monica & Ross -- the Routine
Phoebe's Wedding
The Proposal -- Monica & Chandler
Thanksgiving with Brad Pitt
Joey & Rachel go on a Date
Pivot Episode
Joey learns French!
Ross -- Leather Pants
Chandler takes a Bath!
Ross & Rachel -- With or Without You
Friends -- Saying Goodbye
The Apartment Bet
<3 AG
i do not care what anyone says, friends has to be one of thee best shows ever...and the more i re-watch episodes, the more they make me laugh...at this very moment (probably why i cannot even produce a sentence or type a word, or that i am getting distracted every 5 minutes) i am watching the episode where phoebe finds out that chandler & monica are dating, while ross is trying to get ugly naked guy's apartment...
friends, dealt with all issues, ross & rachel falling in & out of love with each other, probably some of my favorite episodes, joey becoming famous or not famous & his ohh so famous line, "how you doin'?"...monica & chandler falling in love & getting married, rachel starting the show as server only to evolve in to a top fashion buyer...the girls losing their apartment to the guys b/c rachel thought chandler was a "transponsder"...ross dating several people outside of rachel & all of them failing because rachel was his real lobster...& phoebe & all her quirknyness, like her teaching rachel how to run, her wanting to change her name after she got married to mike, & her alter ego, regina phalange (which, as you know, is my alter ego)...
we fell in love when they fell in love, we laughed when they laughed, we enjoyed them for 10 seasons, and i cannot thank nick at nite enough for showing reruns...
so here is to some of my favorite friends moments...
friends, i miss you,
ENJOY, cause there is a lot...& i literally could keep going...(ps i got out of control)...
She's his lobster!
Monica & Ross -- the Routine
Phoebe's Wedding
The Proposal -- Monica & Chandler
Thanksgiving with Brad Pitt
Joey & Rachel go on a Date
Pivot Episode
Joey learns French!
Ross -- Leather Pants
Chandler takes a Bath!
Ross & Rachel -- With or Without You
Friends -- Saying Goodbye
The Apartment Bet
<3 AG
2.23.2012
& we hold on...
...or we walk away & let go...
day 54
as i thought about this topic more & more, & i thought i had the answer, or rather a general rule that could be applied to everyone's situation...i was wrong (close your mouth some times (not often) i can be wrong)...this is completely & utterly case by case basis...it also depends on the person (s) involved in the relationship...if both parties want to quit than you both need to walk away for the sake of hurting each other...
however i am going to give a little insight into my views (really are you surprised)...
i will say i do have a very strong philosophy about relationships that i think all people should adapt some version of it..."if you cannot give the other person what they need or deserve & you know they can't walk away, you have to be the one to let go" ...as humans one of the hardest things to do is to let go of someone (something) when we are not ready, even if that person is hurting us or they clearly not into the relationship...& most often the person not wanting to let go cannot see this, so they keep holding on...if you are the other person, & you care any amount for that person at all you need to be the one to speak up and say i am not giving you what you need & walk away from them...& then in that situation the relationship is no more...it can't be where one person is in it & the other is half-a*#...it is not fair to any one...
can a relationship recover after it has gotten the sh%$ beat out it, again it depends...both parties must be in agreement, to be honest (not one of my best characteristics), i will most likely either never trust again or have a hard time trusting that person again...as i mentioned before trust is big for me & once i trust you, i really trust you, however if that is broken, chances are that is it...
a relationship can be the greatest thing in the world, you share so many things in common & you are there for that person at the best of times & then at the worst of times...but in the same breath some of the greatest relationships can be destroyed in a blink of an eye, then you & only you determine what is worth the fight & what is worth losing...
the joys of getting older...
<3 GP
<3 BB
day 54
as i thought about this topic more & more, & i thought i had the answer, or rather a general rule that could be applied to everyone's situation...i was wrong (close your mouth some times (not often) i can be wrong)...this is completely & utterly case by case basis...it also depends on the person (s) involved in the relationship...if both parties want to quit than you both need to walk away for the sake of hurting each other...
however i am going to give a little insight into my views (really are you surprised)...
i will say i do have a very strong philosophy about relationships that i think all people should adapt some version of it..."if you cannot give the other person what they need or deserve & you know they can't walk away, you have to be the one to let go" ...as humans one of the hardest things to do is to let go of someone (something) when we are not ready, even if that person is hurting us or they clearly not into the relationship...& most often the person not wanting to let go cannot see this, so they keep holding on...if you are the other person, & you care any amount for that person at all you need to be the one to speak up and say i am not giving you what you need & walk away from them...& then in that situation the relationship is no more...it can't be where one person is in it & the other is half-a*#...it is not fair to any one...
can a relationship recover after it has gotten the sh%$ beat out it, again it depends...both parties must be in agreement, to be honest (not one of my best characteristics), i will most likely either never trust again or have a hard time trusting that person again...as i mentioned before trust is big for me & once i trust you, i really trust you, however if that is broken, chances are that is it...
a relationship can be the greatest thing in the world, you share so many things in common & you are there for that person at the best of times & then at the worst of times...but in the same breath some of the greatest relationships can be destroyed in a blink of an eye, then you & only you determine what is worth the fight & what is worth losing...
the joys of getting older...
<3 GP
<3 BB
2.22.2012
...how did we get to this place...
day 53
...& more importantly where to go from here...
(love the fact that i have completely deviated from the love theme, & i try to slip it in acting like it counts...ohh well thank God this blog has no restrictions; who reads it anyway;)...
i know where the hell is she taking us now...this particular topic i am correlating it with a relationship (ha, there is the love:)...this does not necessarily mean that it is "couple" relationship, it could be friendly, it could be family, it could be just anything you categorize under the term relationship...
definition of a relationship (according to DP dictionary, yes that would be me:) -- where two people find common interests, beliefs, morals, traditions, or values & share in events that involve those factors...
however in saying my definition have you ever been in a relationship where it started off amazingly well & you thought that the person would be in your life forever & then you reach a point where either you have drifted apart, one is putting in more effort than the other, or all those common "stuff" is no longer common?
so after this becomes aware to both parties, what do you do? do you cut your losses, even though it was one of the greatest relationships you have ever been in, do you walk away? does that person become more of acquaintance than a friend? we are all aware that relationships evolve & develop, but when does one step back & say, "hey this isn't working for me?" do you keep working at it? what point to you keep fighting, & what point do you hold on? if this is it, is there anyway you can go back to where you were before, after some time has passed?? what is, if anything, forgivable or excusable when it comes to a solid relationship???
get back to me, & i will weigh in tmrw from where i stand (don't get to excited)...
<3 KN
...& more importantly where to go from here...
(love the fact that i have completely deviated from the love theme, & i try to slip it in acting like it counts...ohh well thank God this blog has no restrictions; who reads it anyway;)...
i know where the hell is she taking us now...this particular topic i am correlating it with a relationship (ha, there is the love:)...this does not necessarily mean that it is "couple" relationship, it could be friendly, it could be family, it could be just anything you categorize under the term relationship...
definition of a relationship (according to DP dictionary, yes that would be me:) -- where two people find common interests, beliefs, morals, traditions, or values & share in events that involve those factors...
however in saying my definition have you ever been in a relationship where it started off amazingly well & you thought that the person would be in your life forever & then you reach a point where either you have drifted apart, one is putting in more effort than the other, or all those common "stuff" is no longer common?
so after this becomes aware to both parties, what do you do? do you cut your losses, even though it was one of the greatest relationships you have ever been in, do you walk away? does that person become more of acquaintance than a friend? we are all aware that relationships evolve & develop, but when does one step back & say, "hey this isn't working for me?" do you keep working at it? what point to you keep fighting, & what point do you hold on? if this is it, is there anyway you can go back to where you were before, after some time has passed?? what is, if anything, forgivable or excusable when it comes to a solid relationship???
get back to me, & i will weigh in tmrw from where i stand (don't get to excited)...
<3 KN
2.21.2012
the problem is...those damn girl scouts...
& their cookies...yet we still trust, love them & buy from them...
day 52...
(well my sister just inspired this blog post & i also think, it is also inspired due to the fact that i have neglected every respect of shrinking my a*%...so basically we can thank marisa later {will send her contact info, subject reading: "please do not discuss stupid, irrelevant topics with your sister, b/c then she will blog about them, ps not kidding})...
GIRL SCOUT COOKIES -- i am in love with them...well not all, two in particular, caramel delights (don't be tryin' to correct me, that is the name of them not samoas), & thin mints (those are stilled called thin mints, come on girl scouts get it together)...
do i need to say anything else...the cookies melt in your mouth, i recommend freezing both kinds, just because you can & in addition to the fact that it makes them that much better (come on i dare ya:)...heaven in your mouth...you should get some & then eat 1 or 2 (boxes, kidding well maybe not)...
...the girl scouts have this market locked up, they sell once a year & people buy them like they are going extinct (we all know you bought 20 boxes this year so you can freeze "some of them," & keep your fingers cross they last until next selling season, damn girl scouts)...they are like crack, you want to say no, but you just keep going back for more...
ok so let us recap this blog post, GIRL SCOUT COOKIES -- CARAMEL DELIGHTS & THIN MINTS get some (freeze them if you fancy) & then mow your face off...& then rewind & do it again the next year & the next...damn girl scouts...
<3 KD
(in honor of the girl scouts, i have attached a clip (click below) from one of my favorite wilderness girls (aka girl scouts), Phyllis Neffler, Troop Beverly Hills & watch their cookie selling tactics, they are good...damn girl scouts!
It's Cookie Time!
day 52...
(well my sister just inspired this blog post & i also think, it is also inspired due to the fact that i have neglected every respect of shrinking my a*%...so basically we can thank marisa later {will send her contact info, subject reading: "please do not discuss stupid, irrelevant topics with your sister, b/c then she will blog about them, ps not kidding})...
GIRL SCOUT COOKIES -- i am in love with them...well not all, two in particular, caramel delights (don't be tryin' to correct me, that is the name of them not samoas), & thin mints (those are stilled called thin mints, come on girl scouts get it together)...
do i need to say anything else...the cookies melt in your mouth, i recommend freezing both kinds, just because you can & in addition to the fact that it makes them that much better (come on i dare ya:)...heaven in your mouth...you should get some & then eat 1 or 2 (boxes, kidding well maybe not)...
...the girl scouts have this market locked up, they sell once a year & people buy them like they are going extinct (we all know you bought 20 boxes this year so you can freeze "some of them," & keep your fingers cross they last until next selling season, damn girl scouts)...they are like crack, you want to say no, but you just keep going back for more...
ok so let us recap this blog post, GIRL SCOUT COOKIES -- CARAMEL DELIGHTS & THIN MINTS get some (freeze them if you fancy) & then mow your face off...& then rewind & do it again the next year & the next...damn girl scouts...
<3 KD
(in honor of the girl scouts, i have attached a clip (click below) from one of my favorite wilderness girls (aka girl scouts), Phyllis Neffler, Troop Beverly Hills & watch their cookie selling tactics, they are good...damn girl scouts!
It's Cookie Time!
2.20.2012
this person....
day 51...
...this person is just there, no one asked them, they just are there...
this person laughs at you even when no one else thinks you are funny...
...this person is your biggest fan & supporter...
this person will always help you...
...this person is a survivor...
this person loves unconditionally...
...this person will fight for those they love...
this person looks to find the best in you...
...this person loves you for you...
this person will take all of you (even the parts that aren't as appealing)...
...this person will be honest & truthful to you...
this person will care for you at all stages of your life...
...this person will hug you when you need it...
this person will be there when no one else is there...
...this person will pick up the pieces when you have made a mess...
this person will yell you at one minute & then kiss you the next...
...this person will push you to be a better you...
this person will have dreams for you...
...this person will let go of you (even when it breaks their heart)
this person is fun but means business...
...this person fills many roles...
but her greatest role of all is to be a mother...
...take a moment & call your mother, tell her thank you for the moments she has created in your life, that have made your heart beam from ear to ear...then when you see her wrap your arms around her, & tell her "i love you, b/c i am blessed with you each & everyday i am loved, i am not only a dreamer but a believer, i am a survivor, & i can do anything, & i always know that some one is cheering me on...thank you for being that person..."
to all the mothers (no matter how that word is interpreted to you), i say thank you...probably one of toughest yet rewarding jobs...
to mine, who is my angel, my best friend, my heart, i thank you & i love you...:)
<3 GG
...this person is just there, no one asked them, they just are there...
this person laughs at you even when no one else thinks you are funny...
...this person is your biggest fan & supporter...
this person will always help you...
...this person is a survivor...
this person loves unconditionally...
...this person will fight for those they love...
this person looks to find the best in you...
...this person loves you for you...
this person will take all of you (even the parts that aren't as appealing)...
...this person will be honest & truthful to you...
this person will care for you at all stages of your life...
...this person will hug you when you need it...
this person will be there when no one else is there...
...this person will pick up the pieces when you have made a mess...
this person will yell you at one minute & then kiss you the next...
...this person will push you to be a better you...
this person will have dreams for you...
...this person will let go of you (even when it breaks their heart)
this person is fun but means business...
...this person fills many roles...
but her greatest role of all is to be a mother...
...take a moment & call your mother, tell her thank you for the moments she has created in your life, that have made your heart beam from ear to ear...then when you see her wrap your arms around her, & tell her "i love you, b/c i am blessed with you each & everyday i am loved, i am not only a dreamer but a believer, i am a survivor, & i can do anything, & i always know that some one is cheering me on...thank you for being that person..."
to all the mothers (no matter how that word is interpreted to you), i say thank you...probably one of toughest yet rewarding jobs...
to mine, who is my angel, my best friend, my heart, i thank you & i love you...:)
<3 GG
2.19.2012
a sunday, is the beginning or...
...rather the end of the story, or shall i say another chapter...
day 50...
where we began...
then there was some more...
(see i am making it real easy for you to follow along {or i just want you to keep reading & not be totally confused as if you aren't already!})...
...when she woke up to the sound of (the now annoying voice of) cyndi lauper; she wanted to shoot herself in the head, she then realized that none of it was a dream & she literally wanted to bury herself alive...but she knew that no matter how many times she closed her eyes & drifted back to sleep, her phone was going to keep ringing, she was still going to have to piece together the events of the night before, and she would also have to answer all her questions, among others, & even talk to him...ohh no her stomach started to churn, how could there...omg...& she darted for the bathroom...
...upon returning to her sanctuary of her bed, she gazed at her phone, mother f*; 5 missed calls & 12 text messages...thank God only 2 of the missed calls were ben; however as she went to scroll through the text messages she realized 10 of them were from ben...the 2 not from him were from bitsy, saying that ben was asking about her; so they might as well be from him...she kept reading what he was saying, about "how they needed to talk, how he was sorry but yet how much fun he had, how he needed this not to be too awkward, could i please call..."
...she looked at her clock, ok it is 1:00 pm, & i have completely wasted a day & need to face this, him...quick text, "meet me at GG's at 5:30 pm, we can talk then?" ...she waited & no surprise immediate response..."thanks, see you then."
...ok now she had to some how pull herself together, appear half way decent (if she could pull off hot, or "omg i am so glad last night happened;" that would be a bonus) & have some kind of f*&^% clue on what the hell happened the night before...she strolled to the kitchen, coffee, toast, aspirin; would hopefully start to solve some of her issues...a shower would be next to get rid of the stench she had been graced with...as the coffee finished up & she added her creamer, she realized that she needed to decipher her dreams from reality, well it was obvi that ben was in her apartment, bedroom, & dare she say bed at some point on the night of valentine's...
...the part that was so hard to figure out or remember was cab to apartment, what the hell happened in that cab ride...seriously, she thought, i could not have been that drunk; or could i...she strolled into the bathroom, removed her clothes or rather the rest that still manage to stay on her body...climbed into the shower...the hot water against her skin, made her feel a little bit more alive...as she finished the shower, a thought came "showering" back to her...she stopped rinsing her hair...the bathroom, the shower, omg i remember that part; b/c i decided to vomit at points throughout the night, i wanted to shower when i got back to my apartment...images came firing upon her, she was making out with ben in her living room, & then told him to wait while she ran & jumped in the shower...if nothing but removing the ick she felt, this shower was proving to be very helpful in allowing her to remember her night ofshame fun, or so she hoped...
...after her shower...she lay on the bed feeling a million & half times better, her foot felt something & she pulled out her pj bottoms; ahh so she was at least dressed for part of the night...thank God; maybe she wasn't that bad after all...she looked over at her dresser & found two bowls, with spoons...ahh, she giggled in her head, we must have had late night cereal...he must think i am total weirdo...next to the bowls, was a t-shirt she did not recognize; she stood up and walked over to it...she lifted it to her nose...& at that very moment where she took in him all over & his smell the memory of the night before came rushing back...
& the story continues...
<3 DS
day 50...
where we began...
then there was some more...
(see i am making it real easy for you to follow along {or i just want you to keep reading & not be totally confused as if you aren't already!})...
...when she woke up to the sound of (the now annoying voice of) cyndi lauper; she wanted to shoot herself in the head, she then realized that none of it was a dream & she literally wanted to bury herself alive...but she knew that no matter how many times she closed her eyes & drifted back to sleep, her phone was going to keep ringing, she was still going to have to piece together the events of the night before, and she would also have to answer all her questions, among others, & even talk to him...ohh no her stomach started to churn, how could there...omg...& she darted for the bathroom...
...upon returning to her sanctuary of her bed, she gazed at her phone, mother f*; 5 missed calls & 12 text messages...thank God only 2 of the missed calls were ben; however as she went to scroll through the text messages she realized 10 of them were from ben...the 2 not from him were from bitsy, saying that ben was asking about her; so they might as well be from him...she kept reading what he was saying, about "how they needed to talk, how he was sorry but yet how much fun he had, how he needed this not to be too awkward, could i please call..."
...she looked at her clock, ok it is 1:00 pm, & i have completely wasted a day & need to face this, him...quick text, "meet me at GG's at 5:30 pm, we can talk then?" ...she waited & no surprise immediate response..."thanks, see you then."
...ok now she had to some how pull herself together, appear half way decent (if she could pull off hot, or "omg i am so glad last night happened;" that would be a bonus) & have some kind of f*&^% clue on what the hell happened the night before...she strolled to the kitchen, coffee, toast, aspirin; would hopefully start to solve some of her issues...a shower would be next to get rid of the stench she had been graced with...as the coffee finished up & she added her creamer, she realized that she needed to decipher her dreams from reality, well it was obvi that ben was in her apartment, bedroom, & dare she say bed at some point on the night of valentine's...
...the part that was so hard to figure out or remember was cab to apartment, what the hell happened in that cab ride...seriously, she thought, i could not have been that drunk; or could i...she strolled into the bathroom, removed her clothes or rather the rest that still manage to stay on her body...climbed into the shower...the hot water against her skin, made her feel a little bit more alive...as she finished the shower, a thought came "showering" back to her...she stopped rinsing her hair...the bathroom, the shower, omg i remember that part; b/c i decided to vomit at points throughout the night, i wanted to shower when i got back to my apartment...images came firing upon her, she was making out with ben in her living room, & then told him to wait while she ran & jumped in the shower...if nothing but removing the ick she felt, this shower was proving to be very helpful in allowing her to remember her night of
...after her shower...she lay on the bed feeling a million & half times better, her foot felt something & she pulled out her pj bottoms; ahh so she was at least dressed for part of the night...thank God; maybe she wasn't that bad after all...she looked over at her dresser & found two bowls, with spoons...ahh, she giggled in her head, we must have had late night cereal...he must think i am total weirdo...next to the bowls, was a t-shirt she did not recognize; she stood up and walked over to it...she lifted it to her nose...& at that very moment where she took in him all over & his smell the memory of the night before came rushing back...
& the story continues...
<3 DS
2.18.2012
the opposite of love =
day 49...
hate...
so in my 30 years i have come to love many things but in the same respect, come to hate (dislike) a few things...so in honor of the month of love, i am going to share what i cannot stand, like makes my skin crawl...
an ode to hate...
...i hate when people do not use the word please & thank you...
...i hate puke (everything about it, probs why do not drink too much)...
...i hate when people do not say excuse me...
...i hate when people aren't willing to take a chance...
...i hate the "c word"...
...i hate onions...
...i hate unhappy endings...
...i hate not being patient (with people or events in my life)...
...i hate stupid, ignorant people...
...i hate "hate"...
...i hate waking up in the middle of the night; then your brain starts thinking & you can't go back to bed...
...i hate dentists (not the people, mostly the bad news it brings)...
...i hate the "n-word"...
...i hate mean people...
...i hate snow storms...
...i hate the word retarded...
...i hate people who feel it is right to drive in the left lane...
...i hate cancer...
...i hate that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you know you were right about someone/something...
ok to hate just don't let the hate rule you!
<3 EB
hate...
so in my 30 years i have come to love many things but in the same respect, come to hate (dislike) a few things...so in honor of the month of love, i am going to share what i cannot stand, like makes my skin crawl...
an ode to hate...
...i hate when people do not use the word please & thank you...
...i hate puke (everything about it, probs why do not drink too much)...
...i hate when people do not say excuse me...
...i hate when people aren't willing to take a chance...
...i hate the "c word"...
...i hate onions...
...i hate unhappy endings...
...i hate not being patient (with people or events in my life)...
...i hate stupid, ignorant people...
...i hate "hate"...
...i hate waking up in the middle of the night; then your brain starts thinking & you can't go back to bed...
...i hate dentists (not the people, mostly the bad news it brings)...
...i hate the "n-word"...
...i hate mean people...
...i hate snow storms...
...i hate the word retarded...
...i hate people who feel it is right to drive in the left lane...
...i hate cancer...
...i hate that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you know you were right about someone/something...
ok to hate just don't let the hate rule you!
<3 EB
2.17.2012
dancing in your car...
day 48...
is the best feelin' in the world & i love it!
...driving from grand rapids to toledo, of course i listen to my ipod; well rather i jam to my ipod...not just dance music, but everything from barry white, to broadway, to rap, to love songs, to country, to arabic music...anything goes when i hit play, but the best part of about it is the moment the song comes on & my body starts to move to whatever beat my ears hear...it is so much fun, it instantly makes a smile come across my face & i am at peace...
so as i am dancing...i think wouldn't it be awesome to be to open a studio for open dancing, and each night is a themed for dancing, so you have 80s night (kind like a bar but without alcohol; i know they have those nights at the bar, i mean i have heard;)...& you could have hip hop, or club music, you could do whatever you want & people would come & dance for exercise; my favorite thing to say at a wedding, is if i danced like this all the time my a%$ would be so skinny...
this would be fabulous, & there are other classes that do the dance thing, but this is not a formal class or where you have to follow steps, you just dance (as if no one is watching)...i am sure everyone would be hesitant at first, but how many times do you want to just dance, for the fun of it...problem solved..
...literally dance your a&% coming soon (well at least in my head or my car:)...
<3 MP
is the best feelin' in the world & i love it!
...driving from grand rapids to toledo, of course i listen to my ipod; well rather i jam to my ipod...not just dance music, but everything from barry white, to broadway, to rap, to love songs, to country, to arabic music...anything goes when i hit play, but the best part of about it is the moment the song comes on & my body starts to move to whatever beat my ears hear...it is so much fun, it instantly makes a smile come across my face & i am at peace...
so as i am dancing...i think wouldn't it be awesome to be to open a studio for open dancing, and each night is a themed for dancing, so you have 80s night (kind like a bar but without alcohol; i know they have those nights at the bar, i mean i have heard;)...& you could have hip hop, or club music, you could do whatever you want & people would come & dance for exercise; my favorite thing to say at a wedding, is if i danced like this all the time my a%$ would be so skinny...
this would be fabulous, & there are other classes that do the dance thing, but this is not a formal class or where you have to follow steps, you just dance (as if no one is watching)...i am sure everyone would be hesitant at first, but how many times do you want to just dance, for the fun of it...problem solved..
...literally dance your a&% coming soon (well at least in my head or my car:)...
<3 MP
2.16.2012
when one reaches a certain age...
...they shall play bunco...
day 47...
...i love games, i love hanging out with friends...put them together & you have an amazing night...(like how i tied in love:)...
i was recently invited to Sugar's house for bunco night, first i have no idea what bunco is (i know a lot of people (woman) play it and it sounds like fun) but honestly have no idea...it does however involve dice...so let us rewind on how i got invited before i even tell you how awesome i am at bunco...
so Cookie* sees me on V-Day & tells me they are hosting bunco night at Sugar's house & i should come...i get a little jazzed (remember my love for playing games, & to be honest Sugar & Cookie are quite the fun dames)...i say ok, i will think about it...fast forward i see Sugar at work today (yes we work together)...she says, "are you ready for tonight?", mind you i am standing with about 3 guys & she walks up so that she is only in my sight line (this is important)...i reply, "for what?"..."for bunco, you are coming right?"..."i don't know i don't even know what it is or how to play"...Sugar then proceeds to ask me if i know how to, inappropriate hand gesture moving back & forth (got a visual) and then it comes to a finish, my eyes, of course, are now the size of gigantic circles (ie they were huge)...due to her actions of how she is describing on how to throw die out onto a table...none of the men notice this move (go figure) & the two of us are literally busting a gut, LOAO...almost uncontrollably...innocent move & gesture by Sugar, turns into not so innocent interpretation by me...
so i show up at Sugar's house...& Cookie is there, & they have fabulous food (which you know i am down for)...& they have great friends, quite enjoyable conversation...needless to say no gestures of any kind were performed b/c we did not play but we ate, had a little adult beverages, told some stories (ofc that one) & chatted it up...super glad i went & almost learned how to play the clean version of bunco...maybe they will invite me again & i can show them my moves (please remove mind from gutter;)
Happy Bunco-ing!
*names have been changed to protect the identity of friends involved in said bunco nights
<3 JM
day 47...
...i love games, i love hanging out with friends...put them together & you have an amazing night...(like how i tied in love:)...
i was recently invited to Sugar's house for bunco night, first i have no idea what bunco is (i know a lot of people (woman) play it and it sounds like fun) but honestly have no idea...it does however involve dice...so let us rewind on how i got invited before i even tell you how awesome i am at bunco...
so Cookie* sees me on V-Day & tells me they are hosting bunco night at Sugar's house & i should come...i get a little jazzed (remember my love for playing games, & to be honest Sugar & Cookie are quite the fun dames)...i say ok, i will think about it...fast forward i see Sugar at work today (yes we work together)...she says, "are you ready for tonight?", mind you i am standing with about 3 guys & she walks up so that she is only in my sight line (this is important)...i reply, "for what?"..."for bunco, you are coming right?"..."i don't know i don't even know what it is or how to play"...Sugar then proceeds to ask me if i know how to, inappropriate hand gesture moving back & forth (got a visual) and then it comes to a finish, my eyes, of course, are now the size of gigantic circles (ie they were huge)...due to her actions of how she is describing on how to throw die out onto a table...none of the men notice this move (go figure) & the two of us are literally busting a gut, LOAO...almost uncontrollably...innocent move & gesture by Sugar, turns into not so innocent interpretation by me...
so i show up at Sugar's house...& Cookie is there, & they have fabulous food (which you know i am down for)...& they have great friends, quite enjoyable conversation...needless to say no gestures of any kind were performed b/c we did not play but we ate, had a little adult beverages, told some stories (ofc that one) & chatted it up...super glad i went & almost learned how to play the clean version of bunco...maybe they will invite me again & i can show them my moves (please remove mind from gutter;)
Happy Bunco-ing!
*names have been changed to protect the identity of friends involved in said bunco nights
<3 JM
2.15.2012
& then there was an ending...
day 46...
or a middle...the story continues...
(here is part one if you need it, http://daysof30.blogspot.com/2012/02/ohh-valentine-where-art-thou.html)
..."hello, what is going on," the sleep still lingering in her voice..."hey, its me, bitsy, are you coming into work, or you playin' hooky, you had a pretty rough night?" as soon as she went to respond to the next question, the beating in her head started to pound again..."ohh sh%$, i am not sure, i can't quite figure out what happened, & i am too sick to even care about work...feel out sophie, and see if she will let me have this day to come back to life..." "ok, i will call you back in two shakes..." "thanks, bitsy, & when you call back could you not scream into the phone..." "umm, i will whisper," & she chuckled as she got off the phone...
...she rolled over to try to comprehend what had happened...she remember the first part of her dream, where she thought she was awake, but maybe that was the dream & the reality was the horrid v-day...'ohh mother f, something else must have been in that alcohol besides the vodka'...as soon as that thought left her head, she started remembering her supposed dream of events of v-day, & her mouth slowly started to drop further & further open...she scrambled for her phone, read, well tried to read, some texts that made no sense...especially to one number, that were sent last night & then again this morning...'thank you for last night'...'did she have a random hook up, with a random person...what the heck, why can't i remember'...as she was scrolling through the rest, her phone went off..."hey bits, what's the story?" "well sophie wasn't too happy, but she bought it & said you would have to work from home..." "thank God, b/c if i came in, first they would send me packin' for my looks alone at this moment, & i would be doing most of my work, remotely anyway from the ladies room..." "no worries," bitsy responded, "i will call you later..." "hey bits, one last question, can you tell me what happened last night?" bitsy started roaring, "yeah i can tell you, up into the point where you got in the cab with Ben..." "ohh no, i cannot believe do you think? did we?, he is going to think i am the biggest lush..." "i can connect you, he is here at work..." she chuckled "i am so not amused, no, besides i have to go puke, call me later..."
while vomit still managed to come out of her, she was trying to remember the events via the cab ride...she picked up her phone, scrolled through his messages, 'the random number, the random texts, it was ben'...she quick texted him, apologizing for the hot mess that occurred, and saying she appreciated his companying her home...hoping he might give an indication of what happened, or what she said, & God forbid did...
...response immediately back, as her eyes gazed upon the words "couldn't keep you hands off of me," "the best i ever had," "so you like me..." she dropped the phone and climbed into bed & pulled the covers over her head...her brain was racing a mile a minute, well that would explain the clothes everywhere...why she was in bed this morning sans pants...her chest felt like an elephant was perched on top...as she lay there, her phone kept ringing over & over...which only meant someone was trying to call her, she knew it was him but she couldn't climb from under the covers, to hear the sound of his voice...so she let it ring & ring & ring, & she passed out again, hoping this time, it was different & all her dreams were not coming true...
CB <3
or a middle...the story continues...
(here is part one if you need it, http://daysof30.blogspot.com/2012/02/ohh-valentine-where-art-thou.html)
..."hello, what is going on," the sleep still lingering in her voice..."hey, its me, bitsy, are you coming into work, or you playin' hooky, you had a pretty rough night?" as soon as she went to respond to the next question, the beating in her head started to pound again..."ohh sh%$, i am not sure, i can't quite figure out what happened, & i am too sick to even care about work...feel out sophie, and see if she will let me have this day to come back to life..." "ok, i will call you back in two shakes..." "thanks, bitsy, & when you call back could you not scream into the phone..." "umm, i will whisper," & she chuckled as she got off the phone...
...she rolled over to try to comprehend what had happened...she remember the first part of her dream, where she thought she was awake, but maybe that was the dream & the reality was the horrid v-day...'ohh mother f, something else must have been in that alcohol besides the vodka'...as soon as that thought left her head, she started remembering her supposed dream of events of v-day, & her mouth slowly started to drop further & further open...she scrambled for her phone, read, well tried to read, some texts that made no sense...especially to one number, that were sent last night & then again this morning...'thank you for last night'...'did she have a random hook up, with a random person...what the heck, why can't i remember'...as she was scrolling through the rest, her phone went off..."hey bits, what's the story?" "well sophie wasn't too happy, but she bought it & said you would have to work from home..." "thank God, b/c if i came in, first they would send me packin' for my looks alone at this moment, & i would be doing most of my work, remotely anyway from the ladies room..." "no worries," bitsy responded, "i will call you later..." "hey bits, one last question, can you tell me what happened last night?" bitsy started roaring, "yeah i can tell you, up into the point where you got in the cab with Ben..." "ohh no, i cannot believe do you think? did we?, he is going to think i am the biggest lush..." "i can connect you, he is here at work..." she chuckled "i am so not amused, no, besides i have to go puke, call me later..."
while vomit still managed to come out of her, she was trying to remember the events via the cab ride...she picked up her phone, scrolled through his messages, 'the random number, the random texts, it was ben'...she quick texted him, apologizing for the hot mess that occurred, and saying she appreciated his companying her home...hoping he might give an indication of what happened, or what she said, & God forbid did...
...response immediately back, as her eyes gazed upon the words "couldn't keep you hands off of me," "the best i ever had," "so you like me..." she dropped the phone and climbed into bed & pulled the covers over her head...her brain was racing a mile a minute, well that would explain the clothes everywhere...why she was in bed this morning sans pants...her chest felt like an elephant was perched on top...as she lay there, her phone kept ringing over & over...which only meant someone was trying to call her, she knew it was him but she couldn't climb from under the covers, to hear the sound of his voice...so she let it ring & ring & ring, & she passed out again, hoping this time, it was different & all her dreams were not coming true...
CB <3
2.14.2012
Valentine's -- a night to remember...
day 45...
V-DAY...I tend not to get too bent out of shape with this holiday, its it just another day, apparently people feel the need to express their love a little more on this day (good for business), but me no biggie, really...love is love, no matter if it is feb. 14th, july 1st, or oct. 5th...(now don't be going to tellin' my future significant other that, b/c i wouldn't mind getting flowers & a card from the <3 on this day, just sayin')...
anywho, to each his own & how you celebrate this holiday...& hopefully the two of you have worked it out to where you have an understanding & one person is not expecting something & the other is thinking no way in hell is he/she gettin' that, damn hallmark holiday...
so if this day/night truly was thee night & you could design it however you chose, & money or time was no obligation what would you do??
here goes mine (now come on i did not say i wouldn't partake, it is just not the end all be all & besides this could just be a random day as well:)...
i love surprises (well good ones;); so any type of surprise in my book, GAME ON!... (you will realize how corny i can be after this blog, but it is the little things that make me smile)...
...my v-day...or any other day of love...
i wake up to a cup of coffee, on the night stand there is a note...as i get ready & get out of the shower, a mysterious bouquet of tulips have graced the presence of my dresser...when i rush to the kitchen, i see my lunch is already made for the day...i smile & go to work already thinking, that this has been a great day...a text message surely pops up with a good morning message...as my day is consumed with meetings & projects, about 10:30, a messenger arrives with a latte & on the cup a note...around lunch time i grab my sack, to pull out some of my favorites, a turkey sandwich, doritos, strawberries, iced tea, & fruit snacks, of course a note...as the afternoon takes off another messenger shows up with a vanilla milkshake & single rose, and lets not forget a note...as the day comes to an end a message on my phone, of leave everything at work & meet me outside at 5:30, for the day shall begin...excitement & happiness fill my heart...i meet him outside along with a car waiting...before i get in, he gives me another rose, attached to it a note...& gives me a gentle kiss on the cheek...we go to my favorite restaurant, & eat, drink, and laugh followed by dessert, ofc...i look over & he is smiling, & i tell him thanks for my amazing day...we go get my car, & we go back to my apartment for coffee...he meets me there, as i unlock my door, a fire is started, and there are flowers everywhere, & music is playing...he looks up & asks if i thought that was it, a night wouldn't be complete without dancing (& he knows i love to dance, to be in that place where it is me in his arms, & there is music)...we dance & then i fall asleep in my favorite place, his arms...
...maybe nothing to some, or too much for others, but it is my day...& i <3 this day!
...for all those who have fallen in love, who have had experienced love for someone, or for all those who have had their day, wishing you lots of love & a Happy Valentine's Day!
(kate don't worry i will finish the story...tmrw)...
BA <3
V-DAY...I tend not to get too bent out of shape with this holiday, its it just another day, apparently people feel the need to express their love a little more on this day (good for business), but me no biggie, really...love is love, no matter if it is feb. 14th, july 1st, or oct. 5th...(now don't be going to tellin' my future significant other that, b/c i wouldn't mind getting flowers & a card from the <3 on this day, just sayin')...
anywho, to each his own & how you celebrate this holiday...& hopefully the two of you have worked it out to where you have an understanding & one person is not expecting something & the other is thinking no way in hell is he/she gettin' that, damn hallmark holiday...
so if this day/night truly was thee night & you could design it however you chose, & money or time was no obligation what would you do??
here goes mine (now come on i did not say i wouldn't partake, it is just not the end all be all & besides this could just be a random day as well:)...
i love surprises (well good ones;); so any type of surprise in my book, GAME ON!... (you will realize how corny i can be after this blog, but it is the little things that make me smile)...
...my v-day...or any other day of love...
i wake up to a cup of coffee, on the night stand there is a note...as i get ready & get out of the shower, a mysterious bouquet of tulips have graced the presence of my dresser...when i rush to the kitchen, i see my lunch is already made for the day...i smile & go to work already thinking, that this has been a great day...a text message surely pops up with a good morning message...as my day is consumed with meetings & projects, about 10:30, a messenger arrives with a latte & on the cup a note...around lunch time i grab my sack, to pull out some of my favorites, a turkey sandwich, doritos, strawberries, iced tea, & fruit snacks, of course a note...as the afternoon takes off another messenger shows up with a vanilla milkshake & single rose, and lets not forget a note...as the day comes to an end a message on my phone, of leave everything at work & meet me outside at 5:30, for the day shall begin...excitement & happiness fill my heart...i meet him outside along with a car waiting...before i get in, he gives me another rose, attached to it a note...& gives me a gentle kiss on the cheek...we go to my favorite restaurant, & eat, drink, and laugh followed by dessert, ofc...i look over & he is smiling, & i tell him thanks for my amazing day...we go get my car, & we go back to my apartment for coffee...he meets me there, as i unlock my door, a fire is started, and there are flowers everywhere, & music is playing...he looks up & asks if i thought that was it, a night wouldn't be complete without dancing (& he knows i love to dance, to be in that place where it is me in his arms, & there is music)...we dance & then i fall asleep in my favorite place, his arms...
...maybe nothing to some, or too much for others, but it is my day...& i <3 this day!
...for all those who have fallen in love, who have had experienced love for someone, or for all those who have had their day, wishing you lots of love & a Happy Valentine's Day!
(kate don't worry i will finish the story...tmrw)...
BA <3
2.13.2012
ohh Valentine, where art thou?
day 44...
a pre-valentine's story...i thought i would share this random story i found...just in case you needed a little love on this pre-V Day festivities or just perhaps wanted a story; i mean it is valentine's day so stories are good, yes?...
"...she woke up that morning, only to realize that everything was only parts of her dream...she rolled over, only to out stretch her hand to find nothing in her bed except emptiness, it was the same feeling that consumed her heart...everything was so vivid as if the moments that her dreams created were in fact true...she lay there & closed her eyes, trying to get herself to go back to the point where she was so in love & the man of her dreams was right there in front of her...the man she had wanted for so long had fallen for her...she opened her eyes again & nothing, still her bed, still no one was around...it couldn't be just a dream, she thought...again closed her eyes, & then drifted back off to sleep, and there he was...
...she hated Valentine's Day it stood for everything she wasn't or didn't have...which in her mind was, a couple, a significant other, someone's better half, their person...it wasn't that she hated those that were in love, in fact she admired & longed for the same thing they had...but at this point in her life, this was not the case...however in the back of her head there was that one person that could send her heart to the moon & back, she always wondered if he thought the same as her or if he just saw her as a co-worker...everyday when she woke up to the face day, she would think, pray & hope that this would be the day where he declared his love...& when the day ended she would stroll back to her car, and think, "ahh maybe it is for tomorrow..." & being the hopeful romantic she thought wouldn't it be great if he chose Valentine's Day to reveal his feelings, & send her a rose for every thought of her, she knew the corniness it reeked of but at the same time it made her smile...& every Valentine's Day from when he started, nothing happened...her hope was seeming to dwindle, a small seed of doubt started to grow, that he would never look up & see her...
...after work, a few of her girlfriends decided that on this Valentine's Day they would cease the moment & head to the bar for some drinks...why the hell not, no one was buying them a nice dinner, they might as well get sloshed & be single, rather than lonely, miserable woman watching some horrid chic flick...the bar was busier than they anticipated, as soon as they found their perch, she looked up to notice that her crush was standing at the end of the bar with a few other guys...she almost approached him right away, after all they were work friends..but decided in order for that to take place she would need liquid courage...
...well several drinks later, she had more than enough courage to walk up to him, & not just say hello but say a few other things that had been swimming in her intoxicated mind...she stood up, climbed over her friend, and then fell flat on her face...only took look up & see everyone laughing...she played it off, but under her intoxication she was mortified...a hand reached down to ask if she was ok; before she could blow him off, she looked up to see him...his eyes were as soft as the night's sky, and his smile as wonderful as the sunshine...in her head thoughts flew by, 'really you got to be kidding me, the one time we actually interact, & he is picking my drunk ass up'...she grabbed his hand, almost not wanting to let go, & as she was getting to express her gratitude, her body decided to reject the over indulgence of alcohol all over his shoes...MORTIFICATION setting in, the bathroom was her only sanctuary...
...a friend rushed after her, she stood head first inside a toilet bowl, sobbing & puking...& stating she would not go back out until he leaves...however; tell him her apologies & that new shoes would be making his way to him in the near future...her friend tried to convince her that it wasn't that bad...but she knew that now any chance of him seeing her differently was completely & utterly vomit, literally...
...a half hour had passed & a friend popped their head in the bathroom, to say it was time to leave, he had left...she stood up walked to the sink, & stared at a face that looked as if 4 year old niece decided to give her make over...complete with a dishevel hair do...she cleaned up as much as possible, and pulled herself together...one last time at the door, yelling to her friend to make sure he was really gone...then pushed through the door, grabbed her purse & beelined for the entrance to the bar...
...she stood outside & decided her next step would be to hail a cab, & head straight for bed with a chic flick in tow; which in hindsight looked really appealing...as she smooched all of her friends, and they all went their separate ways, a voice came up from behind her, "really you puke on me & then you send your friend back out to talk to me, shall i say middle school..." she couldn't turn around & face him, "well that's what you get when you are trying to help a lady." dead silence, crap, he walked away & now i am talking to myself..."actually," as he stood, now right in front of her, "i found the whole thing quite funny, and it will be a great story to tell at the office..." her mouth fell to the floor, "what, i swear, if you..." he put his hand to her mouth, don't worry your secret is safe with me, ohh gracious one..." he smiled & she melted...by the way, "want to share a cab, same area & all, just sayin'?"
("just because i'm in love with an uptown girl, you know i'm in love with an uptown girl...") Her head flew up; wait what...the phone, "uptown girl..." she scours through her sheets, where the hell is it...ahh, eureka, unknown number, at the same time realizing her head has decided to start its own band & the drummer is doing his solo on her temple..."hello," "hey..." her mouth shoots open & she drops the phone, last night???...
to be continued....
<3 EK
a pre-valentine's story...i thought i would share this random story i found...just in case you needed a little love on this pre-V Day festivities or just perhaps wanted a story; i mean it is valentine's day so stories are good, yes?...
"...she woke up that morning, only to realize that everything was only parts of her dream...she rolled over, only to out stretch her hand to find nothing in her bed except emptiness, it was the same feeling that consumed her heart...everything was so vivid as if the moments that her dreams created were in fact true...she lay there & closed her eyes, trying to get herself to go back to the point where she was so in love & the man of her dreams was right there in front of her...the man she had wanted for so long had fallen for her...she opened her eyes again & nothing, still her bed, still no one was around...it couldn't be just a dream, she thought...again closed her eyes, & then drifted back off to sleep, and there he was...
...she hated Valentine's Day it stood for everything she wasn't or didn't have...which in her mind was, a couple, a significant other, someone's better half, their person...it wasn't that she hated those that were in love, in fact she admired & longed for the same thing they had...but at this point in her life, this was not the case...however in the back of her head there was that one person that could send her heart to the moon & back, she always wondered if he thought the same as her or if he just saw her as a co-worker...everyday when she woke up to the face day, she would think, pray & hope that this would be the day where he declared his love...& when the day ended she would stroll back to her car, and think, "ahh maybe it is for tomorrow..." & being the hopeful romantic she thought wouldn't it be great if he chose Valentine's Day to reveal his feelings, & send her a rose for every thought of her, she knew the corniness it reeked of but at the same time it made her smile...& every Valentine's Day from when he started, nothing happened...her hope was seeming to dwindle, a small seed of doubt started to grow, that he would never look up & see her...
...after work, a few of her girlfriends decided that on this Valentine's Day they would cease the moment & head to the bar for some drinks...why the hell not, no one was buying them a nice dinner, they might as well get sloshed & be single, rather than lonely, miserable woman watching some horrid chic flick...the bar was busier than they anticipated, as soon as they found their perch, she looked up to notice that her crush was standing at the end of the bar with a few other guys...she almost approached him right away, after all they were work friends..but decided in order for that to take place she would need liquid courage...
...well several drinks later, she had more than enough courage to walk up to him, & not just say hello but say a few other things that had been swimming in her intoxicated mind...she stood up, climbed over her friend, and then fell flat on her face...only took look up & see everyone laughing...she played it off, but under her intoxication she was mortified...a hand reached down to ask if she was ok; before she could blow him off, she looked up to see him...his eyes were as soft as the night's sky, and his smile as wonderful as the sunshine...in her head thoughts flew by, 'really you got to be kidding me, the one time we actually interact, & he is picking my drunk ass up'...she grabbed his hand, almost not wanting to let go, & as she was getting to express her gratitude, her body decided to reject the over indulgence of alcohol all over his shoes...MORTIFICATION setting in, the bathroom was her only sanctuary...
...a friend rushed after her, she stood head first inside a toilet bowl, sobbing & puking...& stating she would not go back out until he leaves...however; tell him her apologies & that new shoes would be making his way to him in the near future...her friend tried to convince her that it wasn't that bad...but she knew that now any chance of him seeing her differently was completely & utterly vomit, literally...
...a half hour had passed & a friend popped their head in the bathroom, to say it was time to leave, he had left...she stood up walked to the sink, & stared at a face that looked as if 4 year old niece decided to give her make over...complete with a dishevel hair do...she cleaned up as much as possible, and pulled herself together...one last time at the door, yelling to her friend to make sure he was really gone...then pushed through the door, grabbed her purse & beelined for the entrance to the bar...
...she stood outside & decided her next step would be to hail a cab, & head straight for bed with a chic flick in tow; which in hindsight looked really appealing...as she smooched all of her friends, and they all went their separate ways, a voice came up from behind her, "really you puke on me & then you send your friend back out to talk to me, shall i say middle school..." she couldn't turn around & face him, "well that's what you get when you are trying to help a lady." dead silence, crap, he walked away & now i am talking to myself..."actually," as he stood, now right in front of her, "i found the whole thing quite funny, and it will be a great story to tell at the office..." her mouth fell to the floor, "what, i swear, if you..." he put his hand to her mouth, don't worry your secret is safe with me, ohh gracious one..." he smiled & she melted...by the way, "want to share a cab, same area & all, just sayin'?"
("just because i'm in love with an uptown girl, you know i'm in love with an uptown girl...") Her head flew up; wait what...the phone, "uptown girl..." she scours through her sheets, where the hell is it...ahh, eureka, unknown number, at the same time realizing her head has decided to start its own band & the drummer is doing his solo on her temple..."hello," "hey..." her mouth shoots open & she drops the phone, last night???...
to be continued....
<3 EK
2.12.2012
love life...
yours, rather mine...<3
day 43...
a picture that is all too funny to describe a love life...
(http://ohflynn.blogspot.com/ / via from http://witanddelight.tumblr.com/)
...if our love life was like top example we would all be married, have 2.5 kids & live on wisteria lane, but i am going to guess that most love lives look like the bottom (drawn to scale) one; of course you have your own unique take on it...but let's face it, that is usually the expression you want to exclaim in the midst of everything & in particular when you are in like, in love, dating, talking, or whatever other label that involves some other person...
in fact the more i think of it, even the fairy tale or hollywood love life is not typically like the top one...most of the time boy likes girl & girl is unreachable, but will eventually get her in the end...or girl likes boy & boy is unavailable, so she waits patiently until he is available & falls completely and utterly more in love with the boy...then said boy realizes it only after she has moved on, so then he has to chase after her & plead for her to stay & be his...see not so simple either...
i guess the main point or is that you may eventually get to the other person most likely not in the easiest of ways, & for sure not in the least hurtful ways but it is possible...& (as i mentioned before) if you are willing to wait, & get through the mess you can come out on the other end in love (or be completely jaded & never want to date again, & then become a mean crotchety, spinster...just sayin' maybe the mess is lookin' a little more appealing)....besides who want to be boring?
here is to love & all the crap that comes along with it...
(don't get your panties in a wad, february is almost over, & so is the love, so be patient)...
EA <3
day 43...
a picture that is all too funny to describe a love life...
...if our love life was like top example we would all be married, have 2.5 kids & live on wisteria lane, but i am going to guess that most love lives look like the bottom (drawn to scale) one; of course you have your own unique take on it...but let's face it, that is usually the expression you want to exclaim in the midst of everything & in particular when you are in like, in love, dating, talking, or whatever other label that involves some other person...
in fact the more i think of it, even the fairy tale or hollywood love life is not typically like the top one...most of the time boy likes girl & girl is unreachable, but will eventually get her in the end...or girl likes boy & boy is unavailable, so she waits patiently until he is available & falls completely and utterly more in love with the boy...then said boy realizes it only after she has moved on, so then he has to chase after her & plead for her to stay & be his...see not so simple either...
i guess the main point or is that you may eventually get to the other person most likely not in the easiest of ways, & for sure not in the least hurtful ways but it is possible...& (as i mentioned before) if you are willing to wait, & get through the mess you can come out on the other end in love (or be completely jaded & never want to date again, & then become a mean crotchety, spinster...just sayin' maybe the mess is lookin' a little more appealing)....besides who want to be boring?
here is to love & all the crap that comes along with it...
(don't get your panties in a wad, february is almost over, & so is the love, so be patient)...
EA <3
2.11.2012
"the greatest love of all..."
day 42...
...a life lost is a life first & foremost, no matter who they are, we must remember that...
...today whitney houston, passed away & no matter how you feel about her personally, one can not deny the fact she had a God given talent...her voice was AHH-mazing, i loved her...i loved her music...so, a small tribute to her, in my little world, her singing "the greatest love of all..."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYzlVDlE72w&feature=branded
...i was going to add on more & yada yada some more, but i'm not, it is finished...memory eternal...
<3 BP
<3 JN
...a life lost is a life first & foremost, no matter who they are, we must remember that...
...today whitney houston, passed away & no matter how you feel about her personally, one can not deny the fact she had a God given talent...her voice was AHH-mazing, i loved her...i loved her music...so, a small tribute to her, in my little world, her singing "the greatest love of all..."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYzlVDlE72w&feature=branded
...i was going to add on more & yada yada some more, but i'm not, it is finished...memory eternal...
<3 BP
<3 JN
2.10.2012
ok, ready part 2...love...
day 41...
my apologies for yesterday, it was quite lame, but i had to write something...or should i have opted out & said its ok to skip one (i just know me & if i skip one then that it would turn into two and then become a vicious cycle...then you would go through withdrawal & be begging me to come back)...maybe i shouldn't blog everyday, maybe i am too much, or rather too much of me, it is true you can have too much of a good thing (ie me being the good thing, hello)...however if you would like to weigh in, i am all ears...let me know too much or forge ahead...(ps i will probs take the no comments as a good sign, just sayin')....
on point now, part deux in this love saga...so i asked the question & now its my turn to fill in the blank from my perspective on love...well good news, i am not a negative nelly when it comes to love, i am actually truly & utterly a hopeFUL romantic...i want to be the fairy tale...i want some guy to fell head over heels in love with me, i want to be that old couple sittin' in a restaurant on the same side of the booth (well no cause that is super awk) but i want to walk down the street & hold hands, or just be together for the sake of being together...i want him to push me to become the best possible version of me...i want to function together as well as being independent from one another...i want to marry my best friend, who takes me when i am at my greatest & loves me even when i am at my worst...i want this person to know all there is to know about me, but love the pure excitement of me b/c they never know what i might come up with or do next...i want to go on adventures with them, i want to experience life's grandest moments with them and be there for some of life's toughest moments b/c that is the best part of being an "us," doing it together...i want it all & i want to give them my all...
...i feel very strongly that God made one person just for you, you may never know that person or it may take you one or few tries to find them, but eventually you will get there...i believe in it, cause i think that is the essence of love...it can be messy & make no sense but it is "quite literally" one of best feelings in the world; while at that very same moment being the worst feeling in the world...
...i semi believe in love at first sight...i shall explain...not totally sold, on bam you look up & there the person is (not saying it doesn't happen) but i do think/believe that love no knows no time...it can take you a day, a month or a year, but when you know you know...you may not be able to explain it, you just do...& to waste even a second would be crazy...
...to be in love, or to fall in love is to risk everything...if you are TRULY in love, you should want to give your entire being; mind, body, soul, & heart to them, you are completely raw & exposed so it is not easy task...trust plays a major role in love & if this gets damage, you tend to loose a small part of you & will never be the same...& so the next time that risk comes up, you are a little gun shy, but the thing to remember the most is that, that one risk, that one bet where you are all in, can be where you win big...
...a very famous movie, Love Story, comes a quotable line, "love means never having to say your sorry," don't agree with that statement, i think it not only means saying sorry, b/c some times, it is not the "i love you," statement that is hard to say, it is the part where you have to man up b/c you are wrong & say two very powerful words, which could mean the world, which could mean more than anything else you have ever expressed...it also means if you are "receiver" of this hurt you also forgive (not saying forgive if they are mean & awful); but if it is in need of forgiveness, allow them that moment to see your love in a new way, so that they know the next time they are about to commit the same act, they remember your kindness & hopefully realize that if committed the 2nd time, that forgiveness might not be there (this is tough for me, once you break something in me, it is hard for me to get to the same place again, maybe i am evolving not sure yet, not enough experience)...
my overview on love, still learning, still figuring it out, & i think if you are 22, 30, 55, or 85 it will always change & evolve...
to being a hopeFUL romantic, its possible, with love anything is possible...
NM <3
AP <3
my apologies for yesterday, it was quite lame, but i had to write something...or should i have opted out & said its ok to skip one (i just know me & if i skip one then that it would turn into two and then become a vicious cycle...then you would go through withdrawal & be begging me to come back)...maybe i shouldn't blog everyday, maybe i am too much, or rather too much of me, it is true you can have too much of a good thing (ie me being the good thing, hello)...however if you would like to weigh in, i am all ears...let me know too much or forge ahead...(ps i will probs take the no comments as a good sign, just sayin')....
on point now, part deux in this love saga...so i asked the question & now its my turn to fill in the blank from my perspective on love...well good news, i am not a negative nelly when it comes to love, i am actually truly & utterly a hopeFUL romantic...i want to be the fairy tale...i want some guy to fell head over heels in love with me, i want to be that old couple sittin' in a restaurant on the same side of the booth (well no cause that is super awk) but i want to walk down the street & hold hands, or just be together for the sake of being together...i want him to push me to become the best possible version of me...i want to function together as well as being independent from one another...i want to marry my best friend, who takes me when i am at my greatest & loves me even when i am at my worst...i want this person to know all there is to know about me, but love the pure excitement of me b/c they never know what i might come up with or do next...i want to go on adventures with them, i want to experience life's grandest moments with them and be there for some of life's toughest moments b/c that is the best part of being an "us," doing it together...i want it all & i want to give them my all...
...i feel very strongly that God made one person just for you, you may never know that person or it may take you one or few tries to find them, but eventually you will get there...i believe in it, cause i think that is the essence of love...it can be messy & make no sense but it is "quite literally" one of best feelings in the world; while at that very same moment being the worst feeling in the world...
...i semi believe in love at first sight...i shall explain...not totally sold, on bam you look up & there the person is (not saying it doesn't happen) but i do think/believe that love no knows no time...it can take you a day, a month or a year, but when you know you know...you may not be able to explain it, you just do...& to waste even a second would be crazy...
...to be in love, or to fall in love is to risk everything...if you are TRULY in love, you should want to give your entire being; mind, body, soul, & heart to them, you are completely raw & exposed so it is not easy task...trust plays a major role in love & if this gets damage, you tend to loose a small part of you & will never be the same...& so the next time that risk comes up, you are a little gun shy, but the thing to remember the most is that, that one risk, that one bet where you are all in, can be where you win big...
...a very famous movie, Love Story, comes a quotable line, "love means never having to say your sorry," don't agree with that statement, i think it not only means saying sorry, b/c some times, it is not the "i love you," statement that is hard to say, it is the part where you have to man up b/c you are wrong & say two very powerful words, which could mean the world, which could mean more than anything else you have ever expressed...it also means if you are "receiver" of this hurt you also forgive (not saying forgive if they are mean & awful); but if it is in need of forgiveness, allow them that moment to see your love in a new way, so that they know the next time they are about to commit the same act, they remember your kindness & hopefully realize that if committed the 2nd time, that forgiveness might not be there (this is tough for me, once you break something in me, it is hard for me to get to the same place again, maybe i am evolving not sure yet, not enough experience)...
my overview on love, still learning, still figuring it out, & i think if you are 22, 30, 55, or 85 it will always change & evolve...
to being a hopeFUL romantic, its possible, with love anything is possible...
NM <3
AP <3
2.09.2012
love love....
day 40
...my bed...
...part 2 will have to have just wait until tomorrow, it will keep you coming back for more...my brain is no longer functioning...so i am going to tell you how much i love to sleep & my bed...(no i am not cheating there are no rules to this blog, it is whatever pops up in my head:)...ps don't worry that means the post won't be that long...lucky you!
i would like to state for the record i love my bed, i also adore sleeping...i often think i do not get enough sleep & it makes me crazy...my brother & i bought mattresses from a "fell off the back of the truck" kind of place...& i loved that bed until my brother got a hold of it, now, needless to say that the bed is all his...& i got another one...
this is a lame post, it is not a problem, b/c i am admitting that this is lame & knowing is half the battle...so what do i say to you, well as Samuel Jackson so delightfully put it, "go the f&^% to sleep..."
enough said, i am not subjecting you to anything else :)!!!
side note, almost talked about stalkin'/creepin' but then brain said to fingers don't right that, you barely have any one read, why scare the rest off...
my pillow is callin me....cheers!
<3 JSP
...my bed...
...part 2 will have to have just wait until tomorrow, it will keep you coming back for more...my brain is no longer functioning...so i am going to tell you how much i love to sleep & my bed...(no i am not cheating there are no rules to this blog, it is whatever pops up in my head:)...ps don't worry that means the post won't be that long...lucky you!
i would like to state for the record i love my bed, i also adore sleeping...i often think i do not get enough sleep & it makes me crazy...my brother & i bought mattresses from a "fell off the back of the truck" kind of place...& i loved that bed until my brother got a hold of it, now, needless to say that the bed is all his...& i got another one...
this is a lame post, it is not a problem, b/c i am admitting that this is lame & knowing is half the battle...so what do i say to you, well as Samuel Jackson so delightfully put it, "go the f&^% to sleep..."
enough said, i am not subjecting you to anything else :)!!!
side note, almost talked about stalkin'/creepin' but then brain said to fingers don't right that, you barely have any one read, why scare the rest off...
my pillow is callin me....cheers!
<3 JSP
2.08.2012
this idea of love...
sure the hell is scary...
...part 1 (snaps for sequel blog posts)
day 39...
have you ever been in love, no i am not talking in like, but head over heels i cannot live without someone, in love...that each and every breath they take is almost the reason for your existence, kind of love...that by being with them only makes you that much of a better person, sort of love...that God put this person in your life for you to be together, love...the love that lasts a life time, that living with them almost at times seems impossible, but living without them would obliterate you...
is that kind of love out there?...is that love to severe?...should you love someone that much, where if they were to annihilate your heart, you might not be able to walk away?...where God forbid if something happened to them, you are not even sure you could go on living?...does that love really exist?...
can you love just one person or are there multiple people that can fill your heart with that kind of love?...is there love at first sight?...is there a time limit on love (meaning to experience that kind of love, can there be too many days or too little time to have that kind of love)...if it is love will you just know?...can you experience that love again?...if you have experienced pain or hurt due to love, is there a way to get past it and how long should you allow yourself to wait?...& if another person comes along, & you think you are not ready b/c you are so raw, should you pass or allow yourself to make a go at it & risk everything all over again for the sake of love?...when do you know when to let go in love?...when do you know when to hold on?...
Are there ever any solid, simple answers when it comes to love?...
To Be Continued...
(don't vomit yet, we haven't even gotten to part deux on this love boat)
<3 MR
...part 1 (snaps for sequel blog posts)
day 39...
have you ever been in love, no i am not talking in like, but head over heels i cannot live without someone, in love...that each and every breath they take is almost the reason for your existence, kind of love...that by being with them only makes you that much of a better person, sort of love...that God put this person in your life for you to be together, love...the love that lasts a life time, that living with them almost at times seems impossible, but living without them would obliterate you...
is that kind of love out there?...is that love to severe?...should you love someone that much, where if they were to annihilate your heart, you might not be able to walk away?...where God forbid if something happened to them, you are not even sure you could go on living?...does that love really exist?...
can you love just one person or are there multiple people that can fill your heart with that kind of love?...is there love at first sight?...is there a time limit on love (meaning to experience that kind of love, can there be too many days or too little time to have that kind of love)...if it is love will you just know?...can you experience that love again?...if you have experienced pain or hurt due to love, is there a way to get past it and how long should you allow yourself to wait?...& if another person comes along, & you think you are not ready b/c you are so raw, should you pass or allow yourself to make a go at it & risk everything all over again for the sake of love?...when do you know when to let go in love?...when do you know when to hold on?...
Are there ever any solid, simple answers when it comes to love?...
To Be Continued...
(don't vomit yet, we haven't even gotten to part deux on this love boat)
<3 MR
2.07.2012
hope floats...
up & up...
day 38
i love hope...it is the thing that guides us and can help us to be able to function & believe in the present moments and the moments to come...
we have hope that tomorrow when we wake up it will be warm, sunny & beautiful...we have hope that their will be no crisis at work...we have hope that we will be successful in all that we do...we have hope that our children (grand children, nieces/nephews) will be happy & healthy...we have hope that if it comes down to a tough decision, we can make the right one...we have hope that the risks we are taking are worth it...we have hope that if there are bad days to come they will be few in & far between...we have hope that we can love if someone chooses to love us...we have hope that this isn't it, so we can live for tomorrow...we have hope in God's plans...we have hope in kindness, generosity, and caring for others...we have hope that one day there will be a cure for cancer, aids, & other diseases...we have hope that wars will end & there will be peace...we have hope in people...we have hope that we could win the lottery...we have hope in the power of forgiveness...we have hope that hate will cease to exist...we have hope in the goodness of people...we have hope in freedom...we have hope not just in love, but also falling in love...we have hope that one day we will meet the person of our dreams...we have hope in our dreams coming true...we have hope...
we have hope in no matter the event, the task, the person, or how big or small, it is there...it is that little twinge in the back of your brain, or the pit of your stomach, that says this can't be it...there is something just right around the corner that is waiting just for me...
--hope--
A quote from a Knight's Tale (one of my favs...)
"With hope. Love should end with hope. My husband, God rest him, told me something I'll never forget."
"Hope guides me. It is what gets me through the day and especially the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight it will not be the last time I look upon you."
--with hope--
<3 KS
day 38
i love hope...it is the thing that guides us and can help us to be able to function & believe in the present moments and the moments to come...
we have hope that tomorrow when we wake up it will be warm, sunny & beautiful...we have hope that their will be no crisis at work...we have hope that we will be successful in all that we do...we have hope that our children (grand children, nieces/nephews) will be happy & healthy...we have hope that if it comes down to a tough decision, we can make the right one...we have hope that the risks we are taking are worth it...we have hope that if there are bad days to come they will be few in & far between...we have hope that we can love if someone chooses to love us...we have hope that this isn't it, so we can live for tomorrow...we have hope in God's plans...we have hope in kindness, generosity, and caring for others...we have hope that one day there will be a cure for cancer, aids, & other diseases...we have hope that wars will end & there will be peace...we have hope in people...we have hope that we could win the lottery...we have hope in the power of forgiveness...we have hope that hate will cease to exist...we have hope in the goodness of people...we have hope in freedom...we have hope not just in love, but also falling in love...we have hope that one day we will meet the person of our dreams...we have hope in our dreams coming true...we have hope...
we have hope in no matter the event, the task, the person, or how big or small, it is there...it is that little twinge in the back of your brain, or the pit of your stomach, that says this can't be it...there is something just right around the corner that is waiting just for me...
--hope--
A quote from a Knight's Tale (one of my favs...)
"With hope. Love should end with hope. My husband, God rest him, told me something I'll never forget."
"Hope guides me. It is what gets me through the day and especially the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight it will not be the last time I look upon you."
--with hope--
<3 KS
2.06.2012
compliments...
day 37...
making my <3 :) one word at a time...
in my short stint as an adult (i say that b/c i am far from the maturity level of an adult but there are glimpses, some times)...i have had a compliment thrown at me from time to time & i must say they happen at the most appropriate times, when i need them :)...now i also must include i attract the most randomest people ever, & usually i lie through my teeth (i know i have a lot of bad karma, comin' my way, ohh wait maybe that is why i am single, hmmm) about having some crazy super possessive boyfriend, or that i am not allowed to date b/c of my religion, or whatever pops in my head no matter how absurd or unusual the story is & then i sell it to them like it is gold...
...first, you are thinking what does this have to do with love, well i love compliments & i would personally thank each one of these randoms if i had not lied to them five seconds before so...& second, you are thinking well she just confirmed she is certifiably nuts (SHOCKER, i think not)
so here are a few of my random moments filled with a compliment or too
(**these compliments i am referring to are those from the opposite sex; not that i do not welcome all/any & love all compliments)
...i waited tables for my brother & we had our share of people that came & went in to the restaurant, my section (the section i love is the counter, i love the access & the people are right there in your face)...this guy looks at me, (& i quote) "you don't look like no white girl." & i paused, said thank you, and then walked back to the kitchen, still not sure what he meant but am still assuming to this day that it was good compliment...
...this weekend we were walking the streets of NYC at night, heading to our next bar & run in to three young gentleman (who probably saw 3 girls, & they were 3 guys so why not try to see if they could have some fun & they tried really hard; however no suspense here, epic failure)...literally opening line, "we are three guys, and you are three girls, let's go get a drink..." & he introduced himself, and of course i do likewise & provide my alter ego, regina phalange (gina), it makes a great conversation starter...i explain i am not from here, i am from michigan and then he tells me he likes our basketball team, & then i say well you have no shot now, b/c i hate michigan i am an ohio state fan...& then tries to use lebron james as a connection, & i reply wow, lebron left us & plays for miami...which he apparently thinks my feistiness is cute b/c he then replies, "i like you..." & is giving me creepy eyes, & conversation is finished, & we walk away...
...on more than one occasion (as i mentioned) i have lied about having a boyfriend, i even went as far as saying my boyfriend is a big athlete who beats me, and i love him so much i will never leave him, to also telling a story that i am unable to talk to guys b/c my family would murder me...why can't i say no, when they are just trying to use their game...i have no flippin' clue...
another recent story, walking up 42nd to 5th avenue and a gentleman is raising money for some cause, which i tell him i have no money for, so maybe he will leave me alone, but then he looks at me, & flat out says, "you are beautiful..." yes i get semi uncomfortable, but manage to say thank you (people are usually not that blunt, besides that is a strong compliment)...he then asks if i have a boyfriend, & guess what i do, I LIED, my cousin was standing right next me, so i went all kentucky on him (NO, he didn't know i was related & NO, i do not roll like that, but it worked)...thank God my cousin played along & light turned so we could walk...he congratulated my cousin and said something nice to me again...& i moved on...
...don't mistake my stories, i love them, i am just not so sure how to deal with them, hence my awkwardness masked in elaborate ridiculous stories...leading to bad karma...what am i going to do, so here is my shout out, THANK YOU for the compliment, & i am sorry i lied...maybe slightly better karma now...maybe ;)
& remember, compliment someone, you never know when you are making someone's day & besides they have a great story to tell later...
go ahead, get your compliment on...
<3 MP
making my <3 :) one word at a time...
in my short stint as an adult (i say that b/c i am far from the maturity level of an adult but there are glimpses, some times)...i have had a compliment thrown at me from time to time & i must say they happen at the most appropriate times, when i need them :)...now i also must include i attract the most randomest people ever, & usually i lie through my teeth (i know i have a lot of bad karma, comin' my way, ohh wait maybe that is why i am single, hmmm) about having some crazy super possessive boyfriend, or that i am not allowed to date b/c of my religion, or whatever pops in my head no matter how absurd or unusual the story is & then i sell it to them like it is gold...
...first, you are thinking what does this have to do with love, well i love compliments & i would personally thank each one of these randoms if i had not lied to them five seconds before so...& second, you are thinking well she just confirmed she is certifiably nuts (SHOCKER, i think not)
so here are a few of my random moments filled with a compliment or too
(**these compliments i am referring to are those from the opposite sex; not that i do not welcome all/any & love all compliments)
...i waited tables for my brother & we had our share of people that came & went in to the restaurant, my section (the section i love is the counter, i love the access & the people are right there in your face)...this guy looks at me, (& i quote) "you don't look like no white girl." & i paused, said thank you, and then walked back to the kitchen, still not sure what he meant but am still assuming to this day that it was good compliment...
...this weekend we were walking the streets of NYC at night, heading to our next bar & run in to three young gentleman (who probably saw 3 girls, & they were 3 guys so why not try to see if they could have some fun & they tried really hard; however no suspense here, epic failure)...literally opening line, "we are three guys, and you are three girls, let's go get a drink..." & he introduced himself, and of course i do likewise & provide my alter ego, regina phalange (gina), it makes a great conversation starter...i explain i am not from here, i am from michigan and then he tells me he likes our basketball team, & then i say well you have no shot now, b/c i hate michigan i am an ohio state fan...& then tries to use lebron james as a connection, & i reply wow, lebron left us & plays for miami...which he apparently thinks my feistiness is cute b/c he then replies, "i like you..." & is giving me creepy eyes, & conversation is finished, & we walk away...
...on more than one occasion (as i mentioned) i have lied about having a boyfriend, i even went as far as saying my boyfriend is a big athlete who beats me, and i love him so much i will never leave him, to also telling a story that i am unable to talk to guys b/c my family would murder me...why can't i say no, when they are just trying to use their game...i have no flippin' clue...
another recent story, walking up 42nd to 5th avenue and a gentleman is raising money for some cause, which i tell him i have no money for, so maybe he will leave me alone, but then he looks at me, & flat out says, "you are beautiful..." yes i get semi uncomfortable, but manage to say thank you (people are usually not that blunt, besides that is a strong compliment)...he then asks if i have a boyfriend, & guess what i do, I LIED, my cousin was standing right next me, so i went all kentucky on him (NO, he didn't know i was related & NO, i do not roll like that, but it worked)...thank God my cousin played along & light turned so we could walk...he congratulated my cousin and said something nice to me again...& i moved on...
...don't mistake my stories, i love them, i am just not so sure how to deal with them, hence my awkwardness masked in elaborate ridiculous stories...leading to bad karma...what am i going to do, so here is my shout out, THANK YOU for the compliment, & i am sorry i lied...maybe slightly better karma now...maybe ;)
& remember, compliment someone, you never know when you are making someone's day & besides they have a great story to tell later...
go ahead, get your compliment on...
<3 MP
2.05.2012
my love for accessories...
day 36...
*disclaimer, this was a previous topic/blog post for me, but it belongs in my month of love so i decided to expand on this...besides one can never have too many accessories, so one can never talk about it too much!
*disclaimer, this was a previous topic/blog post for me, but it belongs in my month of love so i decided to expand on this...besides one can never have too many accessories, so one can never talk about it too much!
Accessories-- NO MATTER what size you are, they fit...so if you are a 2, a 12, or a 22, they fit and usually look fabulous...so buy them if you are trying to lose weight, if you are gaining, or just because...there is no losing in this situation...if you pick the right accessory it can make an outfit, and definitely make you unforgettable...i adore & love them in every way shape or form...
...so bring on the rings, the bags, the scarves, the hats, the shoes...anything that doesn't require a size of your ass...& rock the sh*t out of it...
why do you think they were created them, so you could feel good about yourself & stand out when you are standing among the masses...
Enough Said, now what are you waiting for...get yourself some....
& did i mention they photograph so well, here are some of fav accessories & the pictures that captured their awesomeness...(i only subjected you to 2 pictures; lucky day :)
(yeah, yeah i know not the greatest post, my brain is fried from NYC, which was amazing, LOVE the city (i already talked about that); any who monday will start a new week & we shall chat some more about l-o-v-e...)
love you madly...
<3 AK
2.04.2012
a crush...
day 35...the love saga continues on...or shall i say the crushing begins...
(are you so so glad this is the short month; we might both want to shoot me & shove this love mumbojumbo where the sun doesn't shine)...
...every person has experienced that crush in their lifetime...that person that comes across your path & at that same time your heart skips ten beats, your stomach ties into twenty different knots, and somehow, even though you talk a big game, when they approach you nothing seems to come out of your mouth...all the words are stuck inside & battling to get out; only to meet defeat at every turn...to see this person causes a smile to present itself on your face, & if he actually utters a word, your heart begins to flutter...
...the crazy thing about a crush, you know deep down, it most likely will not happen, but there is a small twang of hope that you hold on to, for the slightest possibility of them glancing your way, maybe noticing you, and then the ultimate dream, them crushing back...
...we all have been there, i would love to meet someone who has never crushed in their life, i mean most of us do it with the unattainable, the actors/actresses/musicians or other people who have no clue we even exist, currently my #1 crush is taye diggs, OMG, google him, & then just stare, can we say ahh-mazing...anywho...
...but real honest to goodness crush, where i know them, & they might know my name...there have been a few...none of them matriculated into a bigger something but they were good crushes...i had the fortune of having 3 older brothers, yes, that means there hot friends, & yes, that means i took full advantage of being "such & such" little sister...they would wave at you in the hallway at high school, talk to you at parties or events...& my friends thought i was cool (boy, did they miss the bus on that one) by association...it was fun, harmless, but ohh so much f'n FUN...here is a little crush run down...
grade school...
my first one, (no i am not giving names, i am an idiot but come on, a little bit of credit)...was of course my brother's friend or rather a kid he hung out with at conventions, this kid would look at me & i would almost collapse, he would say hi to me & i would do the tweenie, giggly thing...never knew it, & it was ok, and now nothin'...
high school...
my crush (b/c of my brother) actually almost turned in to something, but my fear got in the way & i backed off (you will discover that is my m.o., this month as i take you on my love tour, when it comes to those of the opposite sex) and we became friends, actually he would have been my first kiss (we will discuss, & yes in this month, i look at this act as a part of my grand development as i become 30; the people we let in, truly let in, have an extremely important effect on relationships in the future, crap i digress); but i stopped him; but we did meet up in college at a bar, & we did have that very, brief quick moment where our lips meant...& it was over...a crush has the power to do that, where you remember it being so powerful & then if it does come true, the wonderment is gone...
college...
most of the ohio state football team (hey, now what do you think i said, i said CRUSH, not team slut)...(ps this time the props goes to my sister, totally used that one quite a bit to get into a locker room or 2)...no, not the whole team just 2 (maybe 3 but 2 strong ones for sure) in particular, one i mentioned before was a part of a great dare, the accent on that one could make me melt...the other one was just gorgeous, sweet, eyelashes for days & we actually had many interactions, & i am happy to say he dreamt about me (which of course made me want jump over the moon)...but they were what they were, a crush...then there was also a crush (outside of school, that started post high school) & remained pretty prevalent for a while, but as get older, the appeal (& listen it happens/happened to me too) of those people we crush on disappears, and then they become just a person...
post -college/pre-30...
aside from taye diggs (which i almost would really like him to be a reality, so hook a sister up, yes i know he is married, a girl can dream)...maybe one-three, of those that have come in to my so called life, & they were there, i crushed & then i moved on...great thing about crushes, you can change them like you change your underwear, daily...so we shall see what will come up tomorrow...
...to all those who have/had a crush, keep on crushin' that is what makes life all the more interesting...
<3 AS
(are you so so glad this is the short month; we might both want to shoot me & shove this love mumbojumbo where the sun doesn't shine)...
...every person has experienced that crush in their lifetime...that person that comes across your path & at that same time your heart skips ten beats, your stomach ties into twenty different knots, and somehow, even though you talk a big game, when they approach you nothing seems to come out of your mouth...all the words are stuck inside & battling to get out; only to meet defeat at every turn...to see this person causes a smile to present itself on your face, & if he actually utters a word, your heart begins to flutter...
...the crazy thing about a crush, you know deep down, it most likely will not happen, but there is a small twang of hope that you hold on to, for the slightest possibility of them glancing your way, maybe noticing you, and then the ultimate dream, them crushing back...
...we all have been there, i would love to meet someone who has never crushed in their life, i mean most of us do it with the unattainable, the actors/actresses/musicians or other people who have no clue we even exist, currently my #1 crush is taye diggs, OMG, google him, & then just stare, can we say ahh-mazing...anywho...
...but real honest to goodness crush, where i know them, & they might know my name...there have been a few...none of them matriculated into a bigger something but they were good crushes...i had the fortune of having 3 older brothers, yes, that means there hot friends, & yes, that means i took full advantage of being "such & such" little sister...they would wave at you in the hallway at high school, talk to you at parties or events...& my friends thought i was cool (boy, did they miss the bus on that one) by association...it was fun, harmless, but ohh so much f'n FUN...here is a little crush run down...
grade school...
my first one, (no i am not giving names, i am an idiot but come on, a little bit of credit)...was of course my brother's friend or rather a kid he hung out with at conventions, this kid would look at me & i would almost collapse, he would say hi to me & i would do the tweenie, giggly thing...never knew it, & it was ok, and now nothin'...
high school...
my crush (b/c of my brother) actually almost turned in to something, but my fear got in the way & i backed off (you will discover that is my m.o., this month as i take you on my love tour, when it comes to those of the opposite sex) and we became friends, actually he would have been my first kiss (we will discuss, & yes in this month, i look at this act as a part of my grand development as i become 30; the people we let in, truly let in, have an extremely important effect on relationships in the future, crap i digress); but i stopped him; but we did meet up in college at a bar, & we did have that very, brief quick moment where our lips meant...& it was over...a crush has the power to do that, where you remember it being so powerful & then if it does come true, the wonderment is gone...
college...
most of the ohio state football team (hey, now what do you think i said, i said CRUSH, not team slut)...(ps this time the props goes to my sister, totally used that one quite a bit to get into a locker room or 2)...no, not the whole team just 2 (maybe 3 but 2 strong ones for sure) in particular, one i mentioned before was a part of a great dare, the accent on that one could make me melt...the other one was just gorgeous, sweet, eyelashes for days & we actually had many interactions, & i am happy to say he dreamt about me (which of course made me want jump over the moon)...but they were what they were, a crush...then there was also a crush (outside of school, that started post high school) & remained pretty prevalent for a while, but as get older, the appeal (& listen it happens/happened to me too) of those people we crush on disappears, and then they become just a person...
post -college/pre-30...
aside from taye diggs (which i almost would really like him to be a reality, so hook a sister up, yes i know he is married, a girl can dream)...maybe one-three, of those that have come in to my so called life, & they were there, i crushed & then i moved on...great thing about crushes, you can change them like you change your underwear, daily...so we shall see what will come up tomorrow...
...to all those who have/had a crush, keep on crushin' that is what makes life all the more interesting...
<3 AS
2.03.2012
NYC -- how i love thee
day 34...
...have you ever been to a place where your soul connects to it, in a place where you feel completely & utterly alive...it moves you & you can spend hours on end in certain spots in this place & yet you have yet to discover all that it has to offer...
...one of those places that i have discovered over & over (and still discovering) is New York City...i love the city, & would function in this city if that is where i was meant to be, but for now it is my playground...so what makes me all goo & gaga for this city, that other people think, "ehh its ok, or i would rather hang out in detroit than visit new york...
...well i love the food (there is the fat kid we have been waiting to hear from all week)..& even if you ate out 365 days, 3 meals a day you would never, could never eat at the same place in nyc (shout it from the roof tops, a fat kids dream); besides that it has so much great food, & it doesn't have to be $55.00 poo poo platter, this is the stuff even i can afford on a regular basis...
...mass transportation, i love it, & new york has it locked up, been to LA, it sucks, & chicago is not too shabby...but you can hop the subway or ride the bus & you don't have to be a rocket scientist to figure out the maps or the system...& did i mention you don't have to get behind a wheel & drive, or pay attention (well pay attention to your stops & make sure you are going in the right direction, yes it has happened to me)
...variety & diversity...so many people, so many cultures all thrown together to make a city that is bursting at the seem with every kind of different person under the sun (yes, you can get that in other cities, but not that many in one place)...
...convenience, everything is at your finger tips, a coffee shop, a grocery store, a library, a movie, a park, a clothing store, a play, a bar, & it all can be in walking distance if you choose it to be...you can stay within your own neighborhood or walk a few blocks over & be in your friends with a whole new set of conveniences...
...there are great things to see, time square, empire state building, ellis island, statue of liberty, bryant park, st. pat's cathedral, serendipity (its based the place where the movie is based off of), central park, 5th & madison avenue, little italy, china town, soho, tribeca, the site of the world trade center, wall street, coney island, jersey, or you could (which i much prefer) to just chill in the city & watch it move around you...
what can i say, i'm a city girl...any takers?
<3 BA
...have you ever been to a place where your soul connects to it, in a place where you feel completely & utterly alive...it moves you & you can spend hours on end in certain spots in this place & yet you have yet to discover all that it has to offer...
...one of those places that i have discovered over & over (and still discovering) is New York City...i love the city, & would function in this city if that is where i was meant to be, but for now it is my playground...so what makes me all goo & gaga for this city, that other people think, "ehh its ok, or i would rather hang out in detroit than visit new york...
...well i love the food (there is the fat kid we have been waiting to hear from all week)..& even if you ate out 365 days, 3 meals a day you would never, could never eat at the same place in nyc (shout it from the roof tops, a fat kids dream); besides that it has so much great food, & it doesn't have to be $55.00 poo poo platter, this is the stuff even i can afford on a regular basis...
...mass transportation, i love it, & new york has it locked up, been to LA, it sucks, & chicago is not too shabby...but you can hop the subway or ride the bus & you don't have to be a rocket scientist to figure out the maps or the system...& did i mention you don't have to get behind a wheel & drive, or pay attention (well pay attention to your stops & make sure you are going in the right direction, yes it has happened to me)
...variety & diversity...so many people, so many cultures all thrown together to make a city that is bursting at the seem with every kind of different person under the sun (yes, you can get that in other cities, but not that many in one place)...
...convenience, everything is at your finger tips, a coffee shop, a grocery store, a library, a movie, a park, a clothing store, a play, a bar, & it all can be in walking distance if you choose it to be...you can stay within your own neighborhood or walk a few blocks over & be in your friends with a whole new set of conveniences...
...there are great things to see, time square, empire state building, ellis island, statue of liberty, bryant park, st. pat's cathedral, serendipity (its based the place where the movie is based off of), central park, 5th & madison avenue, little italy, china town, soho, tribeca, the site of the world trade center, wall street, coney island, jersey, or you could (which i much prefer) to just chill in the city & watch it move around you...
what can i say, i'm a city girl...any takers?
<3 BA
2.02.2012
tuesdays (rather a thursday) with morrie...
day 33...
one of thee most AHH-MAZING books i have read (& reread) is, tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom...i was assigned to read this in high school & still can read it over & over, & get a new lesson out of it...it can apply to you whether you are 17, 54, or 30...some of life's greatest lessons were taught from a dying man...(& heads up this is not the only time you will hear from morrie;)...
...a lesson from an old professor...on love...
(a few of the little lessons i learned from a professor that i never met, enjoy:)
..."love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone..."
..."love is different. love is when you are as concerned about someone's situation as you are about your own..."
..."love wins. love always wins..."
..."love is so supremely important. as our great poet Auden said, 'love each other or perish...' "
..."without love, we are birds with broken wings..."
..."the most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in...we think we don't deserve love, we think if we let it in we'll become too soft. But a wise man named Levine said, 'Love is the only rational act...' "
...enough said...
<3 KP
one of thee most AHH-MAZING books i have read (& reread) is, tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom...i was assigned to read this in high school & still can read it over & over, & get a new lesson out of it...it can apply to you whether you are 17, 54, or 30...some of life's greatest lessons were taught from a dying man...(& heads up this is not the only time you will hear from morrie;)...
...a lesson from an old professor...on love...
(a few of the little lessons i learned from a professor that i never met, enjoy:)
..."love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone..."
..."love is different. love is when you are as concerned about someone's situation as you are about your own..."
..."love wins. love always wins..."
..."love is so supremely important. as our great poet Auden said, 'love each other or perish...' "
..."without love, we are birds with broken wings..."
..."the most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in...we think we don't deserve love, we think if we let it in we'll become too soft. But a wise man named Levine said, 'Love is the only rational act...' "
...enough said...
<3 KP
2.01.2012
passion for life...
day 32...
so chapter 2, let us begin, it is February, the shortest month of the year...& quite frankly everyone's favorite month because it is Valentine's Day (ok now that we have laughed & i have gagged myself) let us move on...
the topic for the 2nd month of my 30th year, can you guess it --> LOVE (i know uber cliche, but what other month is appropriate to discuss this matter, yeah thats what i thought)...so L-O-V-E it is & anything related to that topic (in like, passion, adoring), & p.s...it will not be the seven stories of how i fell in love, got my heart broken & now am this bitterold young sinister woman (well hells bells, that pretty much sums up the month, see you in march)...kidding, i am so so NOT funny...
so on this first day of the LOVE tour...a story about passion for life...i use the term passion b/c i think it is better fitting when talking about actual life...
...a few years back a very good friend of mine was presented with an amazing opportunity, i say that b/c for her to be involved with this was no less than a miracle that the stars aligned, and she was blessed with this opportunity...remember, "God doesn't bring people in your life that you want but rather those that you need..." & He did that for her...a colleague/friend of hers was diagnosed with a kidney disease and she would now need a transplant or to go on dialysis & wait for a transplant...her family were bad transplant candidates for her due to the fact that this disease is hereditary...so unfortunately her two sons, could develop it as they grow older & most of her siblings have experienced symptoms of this disease and needed the same treatment she was about to go through...
so in passing my friend was speaking to this woman & something inside her was so inclined to say, "well i will get tested..." her friend was shocked & looked at her, like she was a little nuts to act so casually about it...well at that moment she had only agreed to the test...after several tests it was determined that they were a match and the transplant could take place...& she decided she was all in...
my friend told her family, and her parents were apprehensive, they knew (she knew) this was a big decision & that their worries were real, what if she got sick, but she knew God would take care of her, & she was fortunate to be surrounded by family & friends that if she got sick or needed a kidney, someone would step up to the plate...she knew deep in her heart that God made this happen, this wasn't her...& especially since her cousin got sick and she could do nothing, this was her way of helping him...
so, feb. 1st 2008, my friend donated her kidney to another friend...& she is happy to report that the woman (thank God) is doing well, which makes her friend's heart sore; many of her friends were in awe, told her how brave she was for doing this deed...i remember having a conversation with her, and she told me that she was not responsible for this, that God made it all happen, He brought this person in her life, so she could help someone when she felt so completely helpless, He allowed for her to be completely at peace through the whole process, even as she was moments before the surgery, He made sure that everything matched up, He allowed for to say yes, He guided the surgeon's hand, and He watched them recover, & move on with their lives, so that her friend could see her boys grow, & be with her family, and husband, & do what she loves to do, live life...(she also added, "how else do you think i am going to get to heaven:)!"
so where do i fit in or what do i love, it is the passion for life, donating life... "more than 110,000 men, women, & children are waiting for organ transplants to save their lives, this does not include the thousands that are waiting for cornea & tissue transplantation to restore their sight and mobility..."
not saying run & donate an eye ball, all you have to do is register to be an organ donor, you can do it at your local BMV, or go on-line (yes i am including the website) to http://donatelife.net/ and register...& if you are already a donor, thank you for having the same passion as my friend, so many others and myself have...this website also explains the process of organ/tissue donation, & can provide many truths when there are a lot of myths out there...all you are saying is yes, & then have that discussion with your family, & tell them what your decision is (b/c God forbid) if there is a moment where a life is lost you have an AHH-MAZING opportunity, just as my friend was blessed with, to have a passion for life & give life...
(realizing i sound like a PBS special, or that commercial with Sarah McLachlan where she is trying to save dogs, here are a few more statistics, & no all my loves for this month aren't this deep, but what a way to start off February)...
so chapter 2, let us begin, it is February, the shortest month of the year...& quite frankly everyone's favorite month because it is Valentine's Day (ok now that we have laughed & i have gagged myself) let us move on...
the topic for the 2nd month of my 30th year, can you guess it --> LOVE (i know uber cliche, but what other month is appropriate to discuss this matter, yeah thats what i thought)...so L-O-V-E it is & anything related to that topic (in like, passion, adoring), & p.s...it will not be the seven stories of how i fell in love, got my heart broken & now am this bitter
so on this first day of the LOVE tour...a story about passion for life...i use the term passion b/c i think it is better fitting when talking about actual life...
...a few years back a very good friend of mine was presented with an amazing opportunity, i say that b/c for her to be involved with this was no less than a miracle that the stars aligned, and she was blessed with this opportunity...remember, "God doesn't bring people in your life that you want but rather those that you need..." & He did that for her...a colleague/friend of hers was diagnosed with a kidney disease and she would now need a transplant or to go on dialysis & wait for a transplant...her family were bad transplant candidates for her due to the fact that this disease is hereditary...so unfortunately her two sons, could develop it as they grow older & most of her siblings have experienced symptoms of this disease and needed the same treatment she was about to go through...
so in passing my friend was speaking to this woman & something inside her was so inclined to say, "well i will get tested..." her friend was shocked & looked at her, like she was a little nuts to act so casually about it...well at that moment she had only agreed to the test...after several tests it was determined that they were a match and the transplant could take place...& she decided she was all in...
my friend told her family, and her parents were apprehensive, they knew (she knew) this was a big decision & that their worries were real, what if she got sick, but she knew God would take care of her, & she was fortunate to be surrounded by family & friends that if she got sick or needed a kidney, someone would step up to the plate...she knew deep in her heart that God made this happen, this wasn't her...& especially since her cousin got sick and she could do nothing, this was her way of helping him...
so, feb. 1st 2008, my friend donated her kidney to another friend...& she is happy to report that the woman (thank God) is doing well, which makes her friend's heart sore; many of her friends were in awe, told her how brave she was for doing this deed...i remember having a conversation with her, and she told me that she was not responsible for this, that God made it all happen, He brought this person in her life, so she could help someone when she felt so completely helpless, He allowed for her to be completely at peace through the whole process, even as she was moments before the surgery, He made sure that everything matched up, He allowed for to say yes, He guided the surgeon's hand, and He watched them recover, & move on with their lives, so that her friend could see her boys grow, & be with her family, and husband, & do what she loves to do, live life...(she also added, "how else do you think i am going to get to heaven:)!"
so where do i fit in or what do i love, it is the passion for life, donating life... "more than 110,000 men, women, & children are waiting for organ transplants to save their lives, this does not include the thousands that are waiting for cornea & tissue transplantation to restore their sight and mobility..."
not saying run & donate an eye ball, all you have to do is register to be an organ donor, you can do it at your local BMV, or go on-line (yes i am including the website) to http://donatelife.net/ and register...& if you are already a donor, thank you for having the same passion as my friend, so many others and myself have...this website also explains the process of organ/tissue donation, & can provide many truths when there are a lot of myths out there...all you are saying is yes, & then have that discussion with your family, & tell them what your decision is (b/c God forbid) if there is a moment where a life is lost you have an AHH-MAZING opportunity, just as my friend was blessed with, to have a passion for life & give life...
(realizing i sound like a PBS special, or that commercial with Sarah McLachlan where she is trying to save dogs, here are a few more statistics, & no all my loves for this month aren't this deep, but what a way to start off February)...
Statistics--> (as of Jan. 2012)
112,657 patients waiting
62,648 multicultural patients
1,800 pediatric patients
21,354 organ transplants performed in 2011
10,558 organ donors in 2011
my passion for life, is loving life <3!
<3 CC
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