vulnerability...can there be a balance...

...when a boxer learns how to fight they are taught to protect the body; to not let the body be vulnerable to hits to the chest or the face...if you protect the face or the chest from those hits, a boxer's body can withstand the punches...however if your opponent is able to engage and get a punch off to the face or the chest, it will make you more vulnerable to more hits & eventually could result in you losing the fight... --> so we learn that in order to come out on top, one must not let your body be vulnerable & protect it at all costs...

...however in yoga one does several positions and moves where the chest is to be opened up; leading with your heart & in fact at the end of a practice a position, your body moves into 'shebasyna' (i have no idea how to spell that word); this position is where everything is exposed, you are completely vulnerable...laying on your mat hands palm faced up, legs spread out, chest is lifted off the ground, completely & utterly vulnerable to whatever maybe coming your way...

...am i making any sense; am i giving exercise tips, fat chance, literally, me giving exercise tips is like me passing up pie, it should & will never happen...this is about vulnerability (my SIL, kate will love this post)...& as i was laying in yoga class at the end (i said i don't give advice i need it all for myself) i thought about how vulnerable i was to anything & then my mind immediately raced back to that of a boxer...

...by nature i am a boxer; i will protect my chest, my heart; at all odds so as to not let either of them take a blow...however during my yoga classes; while laying on my mat...my heart, my chest are completely exposed and to my surprise I am at peace; it actually feels pretty damn good...I am ok to let my chest be open and for my heart to lead...

is this progress, does this parallel real life and I can allow myself to be vulnerable...or does this mean what it means two different sports with two different approaches??

or just maybe it's a step in the right direction & I will find my balance between the yoga mat and the boxing match....

a sunday at the movies...

...been awhile; i do have a goal to write at least once a week...i have topics lined up but often as it does life happens to get in the way & january is swallowing me whole so it hasn't happened as i planned but i plan to be back on track especially by february; i have plans almost as if february is the start of 2013...however just as life moves so shall we...so why not do it in a movie...

...“Everything I learned I learned from the movies.”  (Audrey Hepburn)

...i received a tv for christmas (thank you  parentals:)...the reason i did not get one before is i tend to get engulfed in whatever i am watching & then everything falls by the wayside...however  i do enjoy a show or  two & i love the movies (hoping to not get carried away with either )...i love most movies; not a huge fan of westerns or sci-fi but i am open-minded to whatever comes across to at least try  and watch it...

  ...one of my favorites to watch or experience is old movies, the classics; there is something about the actors and the scenes it is stripped down to pure talent...no special effects just them &  the plot & most of the time, for me,  you are left with a sense of satisfaction ...

...i have also have discovered foreign films as well as indie films...these often go undiscovered by the masses & they  are truly the jewels of film making...i am no critic ; trust, but i feel that the ones that we miss because there is no hype are some of the best films of all times...

so there it is me & movies -- not the real reason of why i am wasting your time telling you what i love about them ...the real reason is, why is it that we  , or rather i, get sucked in by movies...is it due to the fact that the underdog wins; or the guy lands the uncatchable girl; or the business ends  up being discovered  & is wildly successful only to save the small town that was about to be extinct; or is it that the girl who no one notices finally becomes noticeable & finds love; or is  it that death does not define us or end us and we can rise & feel life again; or is it that good always prevails; or that love always wins and they live happily ever after...why do we (i) get sucked in over & over...why do we put ourselves in the situation where  its  all happy endings & we keep believing in it all...we  (i) do because of the hope; we are the exception & we could be the "hollywood" ending ...we could be the girl laying in her room & the man that would die for her is standing outside holding his boom box over his head playing their song; or we could be the one person that gets discovered  & your life is changed for the better; we could be the one smiling & on top at the end...

we could be...

so we watch & hope... 

...“Fairy tales only happen in movies."  

(George Melies from The Invention of Hugo Cabret; Brian Selznick, The Invention of Hugo Cabret)

can't get rid of me that easy...happy 2013...

happy 2013...

...well i did it...i blogged 366 times...wrote 366 letters and finished off the year i turned 30...so i needed to figure out what & where to next...well to tell you the truth, i miss my blog...so i am going to keep the shenanigans up until someone tells me to shut it down (there is your warning; you know what you need to do to shut this face)...so you may not have to endure me everyday but a blog here & there will give me my fix & if you are lucky may just entertain you...so ready, set & we are off...

2013 -- resolutions...

1.  keep blogging...

2.  be healthier (that will require some a** shrinkage); but mainly eat healthier & exercise (hot yoga & walking; yes i have a plan)

3.  become a certified interpreter

4.  work to become a better me (realizing this is abstract; i believe in order to live one must keep improving themselves)

5.  ON TIME (this is a monstrosity of resolution for me; talk to my family they can explain)

6.  jump out of a plane (joe pedro - we are skydiving; its not coming off the list until we do)

7. trust in lord your God (prov. 3:5) -- He has a plan i have to be willing to let go, so i can live in it...

8.  reading -- everyday; writing -- everyday

9. pay it forward all year long

10. send random cards -- the card project was so amazing and humbling...that i may not be doing it everyday but a random card being sent out might just be what someone needs...

11./12. --> the jess & christa resolutions...

(ps i just took a gander at my 2012 resolutions its looking a little repetitive)

...let the year begin (so the "on time" resolution doesn't exactly apply here;)