omg...what am i going to do with myself...

**disclaimer 120...what do you do when food keeps showing up in front of you...the answer is simple after contemplating what is best for you...you decide it is better to make yourself happy by eventually shoving it in your mouth, then having it move to your stomach, and then attaching itself to your ass...i didn't say what makes you happy is healthy, but you are for sure smiling aren't you:)

i cannot figure myself out...i am having the hardest time getting back on track...i have remained the same weight from last week; however we know that only lasts so long if i keep up my eating habits...so i am going to chuck this week up to i suck at life & for the moment i suck at dieting, with a capital "S"....however i am bound & determined not to give this up...all i need is one solid week & hopefully that can roller coaster into a healthier me (who are we kidding, a skinnier ass & thighs)...

so to answer inquiring minds...

NO...this is not the end just the middle (imagine you went up a hill & back down & got stuck in the damn valley...you just have to work extra hard to get back up that hill & to the top)

NO...i am not blogging once a week (i know it appears that away according to the last/this week)

...as always thank you for your support and patience...don't worry the fat bridesmaid/m.o.h...is still fighting the good fight...just often times the food gets the best of her, hey, i am a fat kid what do you expect...

until next time (it will be for sure consistently next week, scouts honor;)

just another manic monday....

....weigh day monday....well on this monday despite a birthday party....i managed to lose a 1.5 pounds...which i was pumped about...however i was thinking that to gain & lose that 1.5 pounds when i am at my goal wait, is no big deal...but at this point i would like that 1.5 pound to stay the hell off my body...and then when i get to my goal weight, it can stick around & then fall off when it feels like it....

*disclaimer 712...be thankful for the positives...like when your ass is 1.5 pounds lighter or when you don't blow your points...or just find a positive, like i buttoned my pants with one try & one deep breath...

...my niece turned 7 and we had a lovely party times 2...however i held back, so my body would not suffer today...

....weigh day was successful & hoping it continues until next week...

...until "another lovely day" tomorrow...

...just when you think you've got it...bam, a piece of cheesecake is thrown into your face...

day 179...

disclaimer 304...if you go over board one meal, try to reign it in for the other meals (or chuck it up to a f*ck*d diet day)

...& the theme for wednesday is....

"Food for Thought/Curve your Craving"...so on this episode of watch out, don't eat your face...i will tell you of things that help me deter my cravings or foods that i like to eat while dieting (& may even continue to eat after i stop dieting; so they all can't be that bad)

...so this one is more geared for curve your craving...instead of chips or if you are craving something salty...try eating cucumbers with salt on them...i find them delicious & they totally stop my stomach from screaming at me for some salt (disclaimer 22....watch your salt intake)...other veggies can substitute as great snacks (i mean some times they can help and then their are other times, you need to just to eat the damn chocolate), b/c most of the time they have 0 or no points...and if you add a little salt, bam, (do i sound like emril) salty snack, 1/4 of the calories...

day 179...went out to lunch, had a salad = good, & washed down with a piece of cheesecake = bad...

...until "the theme awaits us" tomorrow...

and here are at the end of day 2...

day 178...

disclaimer 342...have a plan, & a back up plan...i'm not saying you are going to fail, you are just being extra prepared...

...1st, my other good friend joined the bet, & no offense to the my first friend, she will definitely be stiff competition, will power like a stubborn jack ass (but she is not a jack ass, love ya;)...

...2nd...i have a plan for Oper. N.M.F.B/M.O.H., a "theme" for each day i will blog...i think it will help me in being more creative as well as it not being the same old sob story of me being a fat ass & continually blowing a diet...

so tuesdays theme is....wait for it..."...positive thinking tuesday..." so no negativity on tuesdays, & it will either be something positive that i get from this whole experience, or a positive thought, & it should make you smile & hopefully help you in your diet journey...

...Positive Thinking Tuesday...

....every time you make a decision in your life, you have to fully commit to it...& truly believe in that decision, if not then that decision is a lot harder to follow through...& the other part is, it must be your decision & not anyone else's....

...my decision is I CHOOSE TO BE HEALTHY...

being healthy means, exercising (i am working on that part)...eating healthy (even when the diet is over & i am not counting points), this will hopefully help you maintain your svelte look...i am also making healthy mind choices, staying positive & sending out peaceful vibes (kate, no comments)...

day 178...and we succeeded...and i was positive...& turned down chiptole;)

...until "another theme day" tomorrow...

...so back to square 1...

week 27...the day i returned to the diet...

...weigh day...i am at -12.5 lbs. & +1.5 since my last weigh day...

disclaimer 836...@ first you don't succeed, try, try again...

...hello my name is danielle, and currently i am a fat bridesmaid/maid of honor, & if i continue down this horrific path, my ass will not decrease in size but rather, grow back to be the size of rhode island....as of the start of august i am back doing my points (i know, i said it like 5 million times before, but for real, we are less than a year away & i also have a side bet going with my good friend)....as far as today goes, i was not perfect, but hell, we do not expect me to be perfect, that is why my version of dieting is so funny...

so thank you for patience...& just think, things are way better the 2nd time around;)...

day 177...weigh day -- +1.5lbs; -12.5lbs....

...i was offered pizza & i said no (well i tasted the crust once, well no twice), you have to start saying no some where & some times it takes baby steps...

...until "day 2 of the 2nd go around" tomorrow...

so here i am again & i am ready to get back on it or so i say...

week 26...day 176...weigh day after the hiatus

...last week, i checked after i got back from nyc about the weight situation...& i had lost a pound and half...now before you pee your pants & say congrats...i went about my business (the business of eating that is for the remainder of the week) and then did the appropriate weigh day today for it was the day that i am officially (yeah, officially blowing it) back on my diet...and i did lose...just not the whole pound & half...so what was the loss...-.5 lb. which is a positive considering i did not diet at all in new york...so i am now at a total loss of -14 lbs...

...disclaimer 345...so at the same point you stop dieting you must realize that you will have to start again because your ass has not shrunk to the size you hoped it would...

...so i must apologize for my absence in the last week from dieting & blogging....however never fear i was not absent from eating so that filled many voids...my saving grace was that it was freakin' hot in nyc and i sweated everything i ate & then some because i was walking lots o' places...that is probably the reason i did not gain and had lost that -1.5 lbs. temporarily...nyc was fun as always and the food was way way good....i definitely recommend you eat your way through the city, hell i did, but make sure you walk lots and just to be safe do it during the summer so you can guarantee nothing will stick with you....

...so i came back & was ready to go & then i had a few chips, some bites of caesar salad, a taster of tuna salad, & then later at my best friend's house i ate her entire pantry and then finished off the day with a bag party that had several toppings of chocolate treats...so way to start back with a bang...

...day 176...real weigh day -.5 lbs, total loss -14 lbs....

...1 day back and i blew it out of the water...

...until "calmer waters" tomorrow....

happy 4th of july...fireworks exploded & so did my waistline....

day 172 - 175...

...so here we are the fireworks are exploding in the sky & the patriotic music is playing in the background & i reach for a 2nd/3rd piece of cake & as the finale of the fireworks show is going off and the sounds of the drum & horns go off, my button shoots off my pants...what the hell how did that happen...well that is sort of kind of what happened but no pants sounded an alarm that told me to stop shoving food in my face...

...i can't even tell you...i am actually disappointed in myself...i am in a big fat (kind of like my ass) lull...i cannot get back on the diet wagon...i honestly believe that if i did not have this blog (which i am also sucking at life at as well) i would have probably stopped altogether...so thanks for the obligation of need for dieting coming from you & your positive vibes...and i am going back to NYC & not only going to enjoy my city but there is also the issue of food...& we all know that this fat chick is going to eat up (with restraint hopefully)...i am hoping after this week i will be uber motivated and kick my fat ass to the curb by the new "want to be skinnier" ass...

...so my apologies for being lame, & still fat, but i thank you a million times over for sustaining me this far...so 172 - 175 days into this diet & thank God (well my ass thanks ya) that i still am chuggin' along (barely, the fat is holding me back)

....until "we will make it another day" tomorrow...

HAPPY 4th!!!!