if you ever want to remember why you go on a diet; go to a store and try on some clothes..

day 110...

**disclaimer 981...after you try on clothes at a store and then you want to slit your wrists...think about this, the people who are manufacturing clothes are skinny bitches & f**ck'em all...

...this will be short & sweet...i went into the city & ate & then went into a couple of stores & got rejected from all of my clothes i tried on (which sucked because i thought i was doing well pre-new york & those sizes, you know for damn sure i am not about to divulge that number, fit me otherwise) & then realized that my diet is so far from being over...when you need a reality check go try on a pair of shorts or pants from the gap or express because they sure do not fit people who have hips or asses...and ps to all you designers, etc...it says boyfriend style for a reason, i am not dating no skinny ass guy so why the hell don't they fit like my boyfriend's pants would...

i am done, screw them all...

day 110...trying on clothes sucked my left toe...but that didn't stop me from eating...

...until "my fat ass tries on more clothes that do not fit" Sunday...

maybe its better when i go into the city; then i can eat as much as i walk...

109 days...

**disclaimer 210...balance, balance...you should have a balanced diet, a balanced lifestyle & when you eat fries, a burger, & a shake you might want to balance it out with a piece of fruit and a stroll through the park...

i stayed out of the city today but ate just as much as if i were in the city...not the best idea but what are you going to do....i had 2 bowls of cereal (& not the good for you cereal but the sugar, good stuff...lucky charms & fruit loops)...and then a turkey wrap, and then some homemade trail mix (my cousin made it & it was way way good, filled with dried fruits, nuts, chocolate/vanilla chips, need i say more)...then later on we went to this way cute restaurant way way north of the city...we had, i felt, everything...started with calamari, then a salad with a fab dressing, & then our main dishes a brown rice dish with chicken and yogurt/red sauce, & a coconut milk curry with noodles & shrimp...and the ice cream place was closed so we passed on that..but when i got back i had a coke with some pretzels and rice cakes...what am i going to do with myself...

my apologies for the chronicles of my eating & how boring and ridiculous they are...but i am back to the city tomorrow...

...day 109...a lot of days, & a lot of days filled with ass increasing food...

...until "the city i shall return; watch out" tomorrow...

P.S...the frozen hot chocolate from Serendipity was AMAZING...& there was so much more i wanted to eat, but i couldn't because i was by myself & i thought that would be slightly inappropriate...

so i am wearing my old jeans & i can breathe...

day 108...

**disclaimer 430...the more your body is in pain the more muscles you worked (screw the people that said after working out you should not be sore, what the hell do they know, they are probably already in shape or skinny)

...well i have been in new york 3 days now & i honestly can say i am a little exhausted...you walk a lot (and some times i get turned around so i mean i walk more than the average person, like today i made a huge square because i was walking the wrong way)...not a bad thing at all; first, great exercise & second, because i am eating my face off, so it helps maintain my weight (ohh ps i also have on my old jeans i stopped wearing because i could not breathe & i had a muffin top & they are totally comfortable; however i also tried on a pair of pants from one of those tart stores & could barley pull them up, i guess it kind of balances out & also reminds me that i have work to do)...

over the past 24 hours i tacked on to my ass, sushi (not crazy bad for you), a corn beef sandwich from Katz's (which was phenomenal, i mean the corn beef melted in my mouth & there was no need to even chew), a bowl of cereal (lame for nyc, but cereal can stand on its own to feet any where), a white mocha (though i did non-fat and 2 pumps of white mocha), a chai latte (also non-fat) and a butter croissant (now i know croissants are not good for you however this place which is located on Lexington Ave; right near Grand Central Station, called Crumbs had the most amazing looking desserts, I mean the cupcakes looked amazing as well as the muffins and the bars, I might go back to just taste them & then affix them to my ass)...i also went to a diner (hell i am on the east coast you have to go to a diner), it was called City Limits & i had the corn beef hash with poached eggs and hollandaise sauce, it had the most divine flavor, i am sad to say i did not finish it (my brother nick would be sad/disappointed he did not even get to taste it nor get to finish mine)...but i have been walking a lot so that is helpful & currently as we speak (or rather as i blog) i am sitting in the prettiest library ever, the New York Public Library (corner of 5th & 42nd next to Bryant Park{new york's fashion week takes place there}) it is a breathtaking sight & i have never been in this library before & i am in awe...& afterwards i am going to venture to Serendipity (quaint little cafe/restaurant; 60th between 2nd & 3rd, close to the east side of central park) to partake in a frozen hot chocolate (they are supposed to be amazing & i always wanted to go there ever sense the movie Serendipity)....ohh the adventures of a fat bridesmaid...

day 108...the jeans are on; but the pants would not even go past my knees...what are you going to do...east some more; well i am at least...

...until "the adventure" continues....

being in new york = lots of walking = maybe not a fat bridesmaid....

day 106 -- 107....

**disclaimer 765...even though being in the city provides lots of food it also provides lots of exercise...maybe a balance, i guess it just depends on how much you eat...

...ok, so i should have sent out a warning signal...i am in the city or new york city (the city i love), and will be here for 2 weeks...so once again i will ask for you to be patient...so it might become Operation...N.M.F.B meets the city as opposed to Operating N.M.F.B one day at time struggle not to eat her face off...and this journey will begin and end with me eating my way through the city; however I will also be walking the majority of the way...so i am hoping my ass does not expand too much...it is hard being in a city where every 2 feet is a restaurant with a different type of cuisine...will power will have to sustain because i am not going to lie, the points will not...i am trying to be mindful with my eating and controlling what i can when i can & then I shall go from there....so i ask for you to be patient...i will post as often as i can & update you on my status of Oper. N.M.F.B takes on New York...

the first couple days in the city were good nothing too crazy...probably drank more adult beverages than i ever have in the past 2 years...officially, i am a light weight, good for whomever is buying the drinks, bad for the bartender & good for me because the calories will not add up...on sunday we went to a place in brooklyn (williamsburg) and i had chicken sausage with amazing sauerkraut, and then a dark chocolate candy bar to die for...yesterday i ate dumplings right off of 32nd street in little korea; which were so good, & for the first time i had a vegetarian dumpling, green outside so i was a little weary at first, but boy did my stomach smile at the end of that meal...and then i finished off the day at a brazilian restaurant, where i had a steak (their seasoned steak with white rice, amazing flavor)...and it was good; so not too bad & between all these eatings i walked pretty much every where along with my 2 bags which are like carrying dumb bells...& as for today i started off with a iced soy chai & will be venturing to Katz (a famous deli in nyc; kind of btwn the east village & little italy) where i will be enjoying a nice deli sandwich; probably corn beef and something...Cheers!!!

day 106 - 107...i have best followers ever; & i applaud you for taking this adventure with me & my ass as we walk/eat through NYC...

until "more walking & eating tomorrow...

i am in new york & eating (go figure)

104-105 days...

disclaimer 298...you only live once might as well eat your way through....

i am in new york and will add more to that...so of course i eating which will then be a direct result to my ass doubling in size...however i have more to add, again i ask for your patience, & we will talk soon...

ps i weighed myself yesterday before i left and i am the same, so that is a good thing, & hopefully that will not increase over the course of the next two weeks....

until tonight "hopefully"

so what do you do when you can't count points?

day 103...

**disclaimer 592...when going out to dinner or a party, try not to be too concerned with points or dieting, 1st no one gives 2 shits, they want to enjoy their food, without thinking about how many calories are in the food & if you are there counting or watching what you are eating it will definitely mess that up...& 2nd what the hell is the point of going out and having a good time if you can't eat...

...did i mention that i like to eat out a lot (i know i LIKE to eat, but i am talking about going out and eating)...so how do you the diet and do the thing you like to do the most...

1. an obvious way, is that you cut way back, you can actually reduce your ass by half if you stay at home and eat

2. search for healthier items on the menu...salads & fruits can be helpful & tastefully delicious;)...

3. put the sauces/dressings on the side, so you can use a smaller amount

4. stay away from anything fried (hard one for me, because i love french

fries)

5. remember you don't have to eat the whole damn thing (wrap it up & take it home or leave it...so you don't have to indulge 2 days in a row)

...& then some times when you go out and completely blow it...do not fret too much...the next day is a new diet day....

103 days gone by...& on this day i went out to eat; had a burger but did not eat all the fries...

...until "no more eating out" sunday (well we will try)...

i almost didn't post, & i ate a cookie...

day 102...

**disclaimer 863...the hardest times to diet are the moments when everyone around you seems to be eating what you want to eat...who am i kidding, the hardest times to diet are 24 hours a day, 7 days a week...

...i am so out of it...i cannot even begin to tell you...i honestly almost forgot to post something...i am currently working on a sowing project and i was in a groove & just was not thinking...i mean sowing is a good thing (any activity is good as long as it keeps me from eating) because i was focused on that instead of feeding my fat ass...never fear my brother brought me a cookie (from subway, they are so freakin' good)...

but let us focus on another positive...i had a nice walk today...my niece & nephews take swimming lessons, & it just so happens it is down the street from my brother & sister in-law's house...so after 2 of them were done we walked home...now let me tell you, first of all i was pushin' my nephew in his stroller, & he is extremely cute kid, but he is a fat kid (takes after his aunt)...so add him in a stroller to a hill (more like a freakin' straight up incline) that leads up to there subdivision (it is quite a doozy)...let's just say it gets your heart a pumpin'; especially when my lazy ass (do you like how i just change the adjective in front of the word ass, it allows for my ass to have several diverse personalities, fat, lazy, lumpy, huge, etc.) has not exercised in awhile...well thankfully we made it and i didn't not keel over on the top of the hill...

....day 102...enough for today...25 or maybe more points (nothin' crazy; just more of those small bites from everyone)...

...until "i promise i won't forget" tomorrow...