i just called to say, "i love you..." (a tradition all in itself))

day 287...


...traditions are passed down from generation to generation...recipes are passed on, holiday fun is passed on...little nuances that tie one generation to another...all these little moments, little happenings that connect generations from one to another...


...amidst the recipes, the language, the philosophies, the things we preserve in our hearts & memories there is also traditions of fun, those times when a small tradition starts out of pure fun and it carries through...you know what i mean, those are the ones that when someone brings it up your heart instantly smiles...


...i have one of those (probably more than one) but today this one stuck out...a few years back my sister & i were shopping in american eagle...and all of sudden my phone rings, and its my mom...and without a word, she starts to sing, "i just called to say i love you (yes stevie wonder)...& i lose it, i am laughing so hard that i can't even talk to tell my sister what happened...so from that moment, a tradition started...& every once in awhile a random phone call with the song blaring or someone singing their own rendition will come from me, or my mom & it just so happens to come at the best time...what a tradition...

...so to all the those traditions that i hold near & dear, this one, that was just pure fun, i store & hold on to in a very special place...& know that there is always a special song playing my heart...

"i just called to say i love you..."

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just maybe you are that girl...

day 286...

 "she sat there waiting for him to notice her, waiting for him to take a 2nd look or even acknowledge her existence....but deep down she knew, her fear was true, he would go on and not notice her and she would need to let go....and at every moment when she was ready to let go, the hope inside her would sneak up and say, 'just maybe'...

just maybe you will be the one he chooses, that just maybe he will notice you first, that just maybe his stomach will do flips, when he sees you, that just maybe he will chase after you, that just maybe he will say, "maybe we could hang out", that just maybe he....

then again that is why it is 'just maybe', because they most likely will just maybe not happen...

& you, you will continue to breathe in and out and convince yourself to let go of all it; 

even the small corner of hope that exists in side of you..."

because the reality of it all is...you're not that girl...

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holy sleeping beauty...the best ones did it while they were sleeping...

day 285...

...this is becoming a unhealthy not so great pattern...where I pass out with full intentions to wake up and write you an eloquent blog....but ohh no, my arss stays sleeping...

...however i must say those that sleep do it so well...& you never know who you might wake up to...just look at these leading ladies...

...so really i am just waiting for prince charming, why else do you think i sleep so much...it worked for these ladies...isn't it fun to dream ; because that is where it all comes true...

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you are the light of the world...

day 284...

..."you are the light of the world. A city set on a mountain cannot be hidden. nor do they light a lamp and then put it under a bushel basket; it is set on a lampstand, where it gives light to all in the house. just so, your light must shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your heavenly Father..." 

(Mt. 5: 14 - 16)

...in every way you are the light of the world to someone maybe even lots of someone...you are the only light when all seems dark & grey...you bring joy & laughter when sadness looms...so never forget how important you are...& always remember to thank those that have been the light to you...

...no matter how dim life can be there is always light at the end of the tunnel...hold on to knowing that...that by you being in my life (or others' lives), my life is that much better and brighter...

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it is that scene where you lose it or gain the whole world...

day 283...

**so lucky that you get the 2 for 1 special today...what can i say i love sleep and now i am old...**

if you date way back to jan 22, of this year, circa blog entry 22...you will see i spoke of the movie love actually...well i am not going to talk about the movie again now where would the fun in that be...but i am however going to point out two scenes...you like the movie anyways so get don't get your panties in a tizzy...

scene 1...gaining the whole world...your person, finally notices you & acknowledges that you both are in the same place...so you have your moment where nothing else seems to matter...and it is pure perfection...

(30 seconds in to the video is all you need)...

Love Actually -- Christmas Party... (click me)

OR...

scene 2...losing it all...knowing that your person will never be yours, and even though you have loved them from a distance you must be willing to let them go for they love another...so as your heart is torn into several pieces, you bid your farewell...

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for me (& maybe you)...its all about the closure...

day 282...

"...a few years back a young girl started dating a boy, the boy was very much in like with her and she thought it was too good to be true...in fact subconsciously she kept pushing him away because she didn't think this boy would ever like her...he was persistent and despite her gut feeling she gave in...& fell in like with him...and they had many months of fun and being together...but when he left for the summer, that same gut feeling arose in her & she tried to squash it but it lingered like a rank smell...& as the summer went on & he remained attentive, she could not seem to completely silence it...then it reared its ugly head, he stopped being with her, talking to her, wanting her, & her worst nightmare came true he was done...& instead of owning it...he wanted to back out quietly...& for fear and uncertainty she stopped him from doing it quietly...and broke it off, not knowing why & not asking why...she never spoke to him again, or asked him the question, why?...quietly she died inside, she knew that no matter how much she wanted the closure, the only way she was going to get it was if he volunteered it...but he didn't and she dealt with it from the inside, as if some one was slowly removing the pieces of her heart until the pain was no more...& then eventually one day her heart didn't hurt and it started to heal itself...so deep within her healing she vowed that she would never let someone destroy her again, and no matter how much she didn't want to she would seek the answers, she would get her closure..enough closure so that before she began the next chapter, the previous one was closed..."

...the water cooler discussion today was closure, and like this girl no matter the topic we all need (whether we admit or not) need closure...we need to finish the story no matter how painful it is...we need to know if we get to live happily ever after...otherwise if not, bit by bit a little piece of our heart dies and we along with it...

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...the finger prayer...

day 281...

...1. your thumb is the nearest to you...so begin your prayers for those closest to you...they are the easiest to remember...to pray for our loved ones is, as C.S. Lewis once said, "a sweet duty"...

...2.  the next finger is the pointing finger..pray for those who teach instruct and heal...this includes, teachers, doctors, and ministers...they need support and wisdom in pointing others in the right direction...keep them in your prayers...

...3. the next finger is the tallest finger...it reminds us of our leaders...pray for the president, leaders in business and industry, and administrators...these people shape our nation and guide public opinions...they need God's guidance...also include our servicemen and women here & abroad who always stand tall in the duty of defending and protecting our nation...they need God's strength and comfort...

...4. the fourth finger is our ring finger...surprising to many is the fact that this is our weakest finger; as any piano teacher will testify...it should remind us to pray for those who are weak, in trouble, or in pain...they need your prayers day & night...you cannot pray too much for them...

...5. and lastly comes our little finger; the smallest finger of all...which is where we should place ourselves in relation to God and others..."the least shall be the greatest among you"...your pinkie should remind you to pray for yourself...by the time you have prayed for the four other groups, your own needs will be put into proper perspective and you will be able to pray for yourself more effectively...

...keep PUSHin'...


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