day 282...
"...a few years back a young girl started dating a boy, the boy was very much in like with her and she thought it was too good to be true...in fact subconsciously she kept pushing him away because she didn't think this boy would ever like her...he was persistent and despite her gut feeling she gave in...& fell in like with him...and they had many months of fun and being together...but when he left for the summer, that same gut feeling arose in her & she tried to squash it but it lingered like a rank smell...& as the summer went on & he remained attentive, she could not seem to completely silence it...then it reared its ugly head, he stopped being with her, talking to her, wanting her, & her worst nightmare came true he was done...& instead of owning it...he wanted to back out quietly...& for fear and uncertainty she stopped him from doing it quietly...and broke it off, not knowing why & not asking why...she never spoke to him again, or asked him the question, why?...quietly she died inside, she knew that no matter how much she wanted the closure, the only way she was going to get it was if he volunteered it...but he didn't and she dealt with it from the inside, as if some one was slowly removing the pieces of her heart until the pain was no more...& then eventually one day her heart didn't hurt and it started to heal itself...so deep within her healing she vowed that she would never let someone destroy her again, and no matter how much she didn't want to she would seek the answers, she would get her closure..enough closure so that before she began the next chapter, the previous one was closed..."
...the water cooler discussion today was closure, and like this girl no matter the topic we all need (whether we admit or not) need closure...we need to finish the story no matter how painful it is...we need to know if we get to live happily ever after...otherwise if not, bit by bit a little piece of our heart dies and we along with it...
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