i can never come up with title for sunday, which means it leads to this title...yep i got nothin'

day 48 & forty-nine....

**disclaimer 21...where do girl scout cookies fit into your diet...would that be the dairy group??

...first things first, tomorrow will be weigh day & we will find out if i have lost the 2 pounds i had gained after the "eatfest"...which fingers crossed, i have...& i did have a pretty decent weekend, except for the last couple hours tonight where i almost ate a whole box of girl scout cookies (caramel delights (or whatever the hell they are called now) are so freakin' amazing...i would break my diet 100 times over for those cookies....mmmm goooood!) but other than that i kept it together, ohh shit, i did have 3 other cookies earlier too (well technically i was only going to eat 2 but i had to eat another for the sake of the group; yes, yet again a fat kid can justify anything, especially when it comes to cookies)...ok other than that i think;) i did good...so tomorrow will tell us which side of the scale my ass will fall on, the upside or the downside....

...also i was thinking & i need your help, so leave a shout out in the comment section...should i stop doing an entry everyday & do one every other day...i do not want to get too redundant, i can only express my displeasure in my ass & my eating habits in so many ways...let me know what you think...thanks, much appreciated...

...day forty-eight & 49...once again let us give props to the ever so infamous girl scout cookies...love them....hopefully they did not tip the scale in the wrong direction...that is where i need you again for your thoughts, prayers, & positive thoughts...keep them coming....& p.s. don't forget to leave me a comment about your thoughts...

....until weigh day tomorrow...

i'm still fat, i'm uber tired, & i'm going to bed...

47 days...

**disclaimer 32...another great exercise for you to practice on a regular basis & you will not mind doing it for lots of hours, it is SLEEP...plenty of rest only ensures you have plenty of energy;)

friday, friday, friday....a whole lot of nothin' on a friday...i ate some food, not a lot...did not exercise, almost took a nap & then went to disney on ice...which believe it or not was actually entertaining & i laughed a lot, (laughing = another great exercise) because my niece & nephew were havin' lots of fun & crackin' me up...so that is enough for a friday & for the week....i'm callin' it a day, so should you, start your exercise right now & go to bed....

...47th day...not sure about my points i got too tired and stopped counting them....yeah that's right, not only just a fat kid but a lazy fat kid;)...

....until a restful Sunday....

let's talk food...or not

day forty-six...

**disclaimer 64....face the food head on & say screw you i'm not going to let you ruin my ass, we are talking to the cookies not the carrots, people...

...here is what i am thinking (yes, sometimes i do think, it is a shocker but it can happen)...that even though i am on this extremely strict diet & i never ever slip up (well that statement is kind of true) that the problem is not right now...it is after when i become super skinny & pose as the sports illustrated swimsuit cover model (you can laugh, i am) & do not have to count every point & i can eat a cookie or 2, maybe some french fries, a box of doughnuts (maybe not a box but a few), a double scoop of ice cream...what happens when i go back into the real food world???....here is the thing, i am not sure; however i am thinking ahead of the game (which is a first for me, & it could quite possibly be the only thought, so might as well get it out of the way now) & i am hoping the way i approach food changes, instead of get in my belly, maybe rather 1/2 get into my belly & instead of i should eat 5 cookies maybe stop at 2...the possibilities of my food eating habits changing are endless, but i am hoping that something sticks so as not to find myself in same freakin' spot & wishin' i wasn't the fat ass bridesmaid or just a fat ass....

....which really this whole post is about is realizing another freakin' good reason to lose & KEEP off the weight...which is if you do not want to become a fat ass yet again you will think twice about puttin' that piece of pie in your mouth (maybe that should have been the title for today:)...

...forty sixth day...23.5 points & a very strange post (sometimes when i think too hard it comes off very strange, what can i say it doesn't happen that often)

...until a more normal tomorrow...

7 hump days & counting...

45th day = 7 hump days...

**disclaimer 23...cereal for dinner is good for you, it is A) part of the grain group & B) when you add the milk, part of the dairy group...throw in some fruit and you have now hit more than half of the food groups...(p.s. cena you are welcome)

today is my 7th hump day & i did not have too much going on today (literally; being semi-retired you got some time on your hands)...one thing i did decide on this day of rest;) was that i have to get my butt in gear in the avenue of exercising & get back on track...which i plan to do, not sure if it will happen this week but it is on my calendar for next week...hey at least i have a plan;)...and the other NOT exciting thing happened to me was i stuck to the points (well i went over by 1 but it was an avocado, it has fat but the good fat, at least that is what people tell me)...

...day 45 & not much to report on this hump of a day (i know, contain yourself, i am hysterical)...

...26 points...but there was some good fat in there...

...until a more exciting tomorrow...

at some point you have to stop eating...

day 44...

**disclaimer 34...God created your body and gave you a stomach to fill with food but He also allowed for that stomach to send a signal to your brain to say, "I'm full, stop eating fat ass"....take a hint...

...at this very moment i am full, almost to the point of fat breathing...not a good sign when you are on a diet...especially on weight watchers, because it is designed to help you not get to that point of overeating...i had book club tonight & we went to a Greek restaurant (My Big Fat Greek Cusina) with very good food & generous portion sizes...i did not even eat the pita that my sandwich came in & in fact (be ready to be surprised) i left the majority of my french fries on the plate....of course after i left i did get a milkshake (united dairy farmers blue moo cookie dough...amazing; remember i said i am trying to be a pseudo skinny kid, but being a true fat kid i will still continue to tell you where to get your grub on;)...but i only finished a 1/4 of the shake...wtf? maybe my stomach is shrinking & getting used to not eating everything on the plate...or maybe it is still full from the weekend...hmmmm???

side, short story...one of my customers, a really nice lady, always jokes with me...she commented on me looking a little more svelte...much appreciated and it felt good, that a random (i.e. not being related or knowing me uber well) said something, so i guess i am making progress...

...44th day...i left the points at the greek restaurant....& did i mention i need to get my ass exercising regularly again...well that's a project for another day...

...until tomorrow...

2 days of "EATFEST" = 2 gained pounds...

43rd day of fun filled dieting...and the start of week 7...& did i mention weigh day, ugghhh;(...

**disclaimer 67....after one too many "eatfests"...it will find a way to catch up to your ass & attach it ever so slightly in the most obvious places;)

a couple things to cover...somehow my ass managed to gain back 2 pounds this week/weekend, i don't know how the hell that happened, however i am suspecting the 2 all day "EaTfEsTs" had something to do with it...so i am +2 for this week, but not totally discouraged, just a minor setback..& besides all the other close calls i have had where i have eaten my face & then had to face the scale...so my ass was bound to catch up with me at some point....hence the reason i gave myself a year & half to do Operation...N.M.F.B...

second, thanks for the comments i appreciate it, please feel free to comment any time...i welcome the comments, helpful advice, & anything else you can serve up (except food) that will help parts of my body to decrease in size...

3rd of all...well there was a 3rd of all & now i have forgot...the weight i have lost must have come straight from my brain and the rest from my boobs...the 2 places where i do not need to lose anything...

...week 7...day 43...+2 pounds (still thinking positive) & hopefully no more "eatfests" & 25 points for monday...

...until tomorrow...

every sunday i find myself in a familiar place...without a title & facing the scale...

41 & 42 days have gone by....

**disclaimer 65...if i haven't said it before i am saying it now (or again)....surround yourself with awesome supportive family...they always make you feel wonderful:):)

...did i mention on friday, that this weekend would be filled with parties, or in my family, "eatfests"...before the "eatfests" even take place my dad makes me an amazing breakfast, we are not talking a bowl of granola, a half of grapefruit and a whole grain low fat muffin...nope he makes french toast bread add the fat, lathered with butter and syrup and he never goes small, he usually puts on 2 -3 slices and then asks if you are still hungry....and before you can even say no, he gives you another 2 pieces (i am not saying he twists my arm, fat kids blame others for eating)....so that was breakfast...& i am pretty sure there was some snacking before the actual "eatfest"...

"Eatfest" 1...my cousin had a baby & his mom wanted to have all of us up to see the baby and of course what else eat (yes, we were bred from lebanese"boaters" that one of their many talents was to feed their families, & the tradition continues)...so my cousin's spread consisted of pizza (like 5 different kinds), tortellinis, plain noodles, veggie marinara sauce (i'm not done), garlic bread, salad, chicken tenders, and i forgot all the appetizers that came before the meal...let's just say it was a kitchen table full of apps...then for dessert she had fruit (healthy:), cheesecake (amazing), cookies (2 kinds), chocolate cake (at least i avoided this treat), & lebanese cookies (another thing that escaped my mouth)...did i mention we not only cook for (well i don't) our families but we LOVE to eat as well...so the food was good, the company was even better & the points were probably in the range of 500 - 1500 points....

day 2 of the "Eatfest"... consisted of my niece's 5th birthday party...my sister in law also a woman coming from a lebanese family also provides an "eatfest"...so we eat fried fish (2 kinds), french fries, salad (nope that's not all), mejudra (a lebanese lentil dish, which i do not know how to spell), green beans, noodles and ohh yes, the appetizers yet again...& then the dessert my mom's wonderful cake (which i am not even a cake person, but it was so so good) & ice cream, chocolate covered raisins, m&m's, & fruit...we try to throw in healthy food here & there; however it does not always end up in my mouth...& by my own free will i had to have a netty's freeze earlier in the day (a local ice cream joint in toledo, that i think just reopened from being closed during the winter, so technically i had to get some to a) support the local economy & b) jump start spring & say good bye to winter, it was my patriotic duty, fat kids can justify anything)...so everyone understand the 2 day "eatfest", good because my stomach, my thighs & of course my ass does & will thank me tomorrow as i get on the scale...

days 41 & 42...i ate enough points to last me a couple of weeks thanks to the "eatfest"...

..until tomorrow...weigh day...